You can't begin to understand what's in my head
As I lye awake all night in bed
Fearing to leave this security
For being hurt by your beauty

You say my problem is I over think
But my mind races quicker than you can blink
It's all to easy for you to blame me
I want these shackles to be released and to be set free  

With you I thought I was strong
In your arms is where I belong
Thought I'd finally thrown down my cloak of anxiety
Created by this consumption society

You left when things got heavy
All these emotions you tried to bury
So much of us is left to the unknown
All I've got left is this poem and another sleepless night alone

I've lost my sense of home
Walking these city streets so alone
Where do I belong?
Where do I come from?
Questions rush to me,
consuming my mind
This sense of home, ever will I find?

By those around me happy I'm told to be
The house that was my home
So deescalate and unknown
This house can't hold the two of us
I'll pack up my things,
get on that inner city bus

Ride out to the darkness on the edge of town
Lose myself in the faces that frown
Make my way to the river crossing
Falling from the bridge I begin to drown
Until a kindhearted stranger reaches to save me

There's a sadness in his eyes,
a sadness he simply can't disguise
Telling me he also believed the lies
The lies they fed him
The lies that left him homeless and thin

Looking at each other no words are said
I embrace him in my arms, for without him I'd be dead
The simple act of a stranger restored my faith,
my faith in the kindness of man
God might not have for me a master plan

But a second chance to me he granted
Gathering my things I hit the road
Embracing the desire to roam
Out there in the far off distance
A place I can finally call my home.

100 Years to the day
We remember the hero’s
Who left behind a nation of widows
Their sacrifice such a price to pay

We sit behind our computers and judge
While the hero's dragged dead bodies through the sludge
The hero's faced the horror of the trenches
The hero's ghosts now reside on manorial benches

From the sky's on London to the battle of the Somme
The brave young hero's fought so very strong
We must not glorify war
But instead question what did the hero's die for?

War is still in the news
With so many more young lives still to loose
To this day war remains a constant threat
100 years on lest we forget

Times are a changin people movin on
I wonder what's going to be the inspiration for my next song
With you I thought I was strong

I can't keep a rambling along this dark road I'm bound
I'm lost and waiting to be found
By your love I was bound,
Bound frozen dead with paralyzing fear
I'm not trying to blame you my dear
But the little cracks they escalated
You become everything I hated

With you where did I stand
I was locked in confusion
Facing the same old illusion
With no real conclusion  

I thought ours was the relationship to last
But I guess that's a thing of the past
As everyone moves on to their new beginnings
I'm stuck here a thinkin where did it all go wrong?

I'll set my mind to healing, hit the road find out where I belong
Sit down and write you a sad sad song
Finally tell you how I truly feel

However much I fought it I was under your spell
How can you so quickly move on? travel along a new road, throw away what we had
You make me more mad than I ever thought possible
Getting over you is just another meaningless obstacle

   Watching you sip a beer, looking me in the eye
Putting down your glass you plunge ever deeper into a well crafted lie
A lie that will make me doubt my own mind
Make me guess that boundary so undefined
How can I escape the hell you put me through?
You fed me the worst possible emotion... Hope

With you I was always walking a tightrope
Knowing you'd push me to the depths below
When you met him you refused to let our love grow
I'm crying out from beyond the words for you to realise what you've done to me
When will you finally set me free?

Sittin with you in the park
As the day time slowly turns to dark
You look to me and whisper in my ear
Something I've always wanted to hear

The realisation that you love me
An overwhelming feel I'm finally free
Free from the crippling doubt
My fears are suppressed and will never amount

With you I feel totally weak
But ours is a future not bleak
A future full of happiness and joy
Flowing through me the youthful energy of a young boy

As we get up to leave our souls intertwine
I lean into kiss you as distant church bells chime
I love you with every inch of my heart
Our love blinds us, ever knowing we'll never be apart

I've lost my sense of self
I no longer know who I am
I used to have such self belief, see a strong man
Now all I see is a naked stranger
Staring at me vacantly from within my wall mounted mirror

Was it you who so callously took away my identity?
Was it you who made me question every value I held dear?
Was it you who drove me into the ground?
Was it you who set me upon this dark road I'm bound

I used to be so caring and unbitter  
I used to have such a sense of pride, where did it all get lost?
I watch all the meaningless relationships crumble to dust
To this distant hopeful feeling, hold onto I must

One day you'll look back to this, look back to what could have been
One day you'll look back with shame and pray I'll listen to you once again
One day I'll realise my efforts were in vain and overcome these pains
But as I lye here without a single ounce of regret,
I know it's you who'll realise what you've done and wake up in a cold sweat

In the wee hours knocking at your door
Wondering what it was all for
I full to my knees
Put my hands together beg you baby please
For just one more...
chance...