Have you ever missed someone so much that your arms feel numb without them there to be held in them? So much that you can see their absence pulsing round your body? So much that you'd give anything to be back in their arms, kissing lazily as the sun makes stars out of the dust particles floating around the air? So much that you've started believing that maybe single beds weren't made for just one person? So much that you're starting to think maybe phantom limb syndrome is the only way you'll be able to feel their touch again? So much that you have to pull over on the side of the road because them not being there is causing a sickness inside of you? So much that missing them is the only feeling inside of your body and so much that it's infecting your chest with a sadness that never feels like it's going to go away?

I miss you more than all of these combined.

I miss him and I shouldn't say ******* having lost someone I love
I miss him and I should stop thinking how ****** up the world is
I miss him and hiding things is terrible
I miss you and I wish you were here
I wish I could have said goodbye

I have so many faults
and you overthink about them
but I am not a bad person I swear
And it keeps up all night
thinking these thoughts are killing you
I wish I didn't make these mistakes but I wouldn't know what I do now

From a young age the friends I had became less and less..
They saw the real me,my mess so they left me.
Now I am not surprised when they leave
*I expect them to

Killing myself never seemed so good
as it is right now
I am screaming at the top of my lungs
yet you can't hear it
Ι guess this is goodbye

You don't have the right
You don't know me
That's what ****** me off about people
Thinking they know soemebody
because they knew him a year ago.

A person can change so much in a year you have no idea