Too late to change my mind
your opinion doesn't matter to me
I am better off dead

Its been raining all day today
Yet the only thing I can dream of
Is holding you in my arms
Kissing up your neck
And cuddling the night away

But sadly..
You are an ocean away
The girl I'm dreaming of
Yet cant even hold

The future only holds
A dream and a chance
And soon my darling
You shall be in my arms

Will there ever be someone who understands me?
Who gets my humour,who who sees my true self
Not the one who I may seem like
The depressed weird girl who has cuts on her thigh and wrist
Who can't wear dresses and shorts near family members bc they are going to see it
The girl who hates places and loves sarcasm
The girl who loves people but hates them more than anything
That depressed weird girl who nobody wants to know and nobody ever will

Put your skin on my my skin
Let our hands unravel the secrets of our bodies
Every curve,every line
The surface of your body

My body screams for your touch
Why can't you hear it?
Why won't you?

You aren't here though
Will you ever be?

I laugh
At things that aren't funny
I cry sad and happy tears
Over things that don't deserve them
I frown
When I should be smiling
And vice versa
I eat ice cream
When it's cold
I have soup
When it's already hot and humid out
Doing these silly things
Might not help
But I like it that way
I'm messed up like that
But you
Oh
**** you
You're the worst kind of messed up
Because you
Kissed me harder
When you wanted to kiss another
Hugged me tight and whispered,
"I'm not ready to give up on you,"
Repeatedly
When you already had
Looked into my eyes
Told me you cared
Even when you didn't
Because you're just that way
Messed up