1 AM

Cold
Tired
Alone

1 AM
And I'm writing this
Not sure what I'm feeling
Or am I feeling at all?

1:06 AM
Decision made
I feel empty
Lonely
Hurt

1:08 AM
Going through our messages
His touch
I miss his touch

1:10 AM
I end this
Unsure of whether
I am mad or in love
Or madly in love

s.j.d

I hate him
I hate him
I hate him

He was never in love with me
He doesn't know how to love
Wasted years on him
Five to be exact

Years of feelings
That were never returned
Just lies
In place of them

I'll always be there for you
He said
This isn't the first time he's lied
I shouldn't be surprised

I keep falling back under his spell
Is this what it's like to be in love?

Love bites

I want to hate him
I should hate him
But I can't

s.j.d

And I'm done with writing about you

A hurricane swept through my body
When your name appeared on my phone

One text
Could send me straight to cloud 9

Butterflies gnawing at my insides
I was overcome with feelings

Feelings of joy

12 months later and all I feel is empty
You're gone and I have no one

You tricked me into telling my secrets
And once you heard them..
Just like that you were gone

And I'm done with writing poems about you

s.j.d