through clenched teeth and a taut jaw
i tell you i love you
but that love is mired with
your lies,
your tainted lullabies,
your hollowed eyes.

like pulling teeth
and salt on an open wound
your kiss,
your touch,
your embrace
does nothing but bring distaste.

the answer seems clear:
there is no love here
yet i cling to you still.

My no doesn’t mean convince me
Saying please don’t doesn’t mean carry on just because I’m smiling

My no wasn’t respected
My right to that word was pushed down with my clothes and thrown into the corner
And I let you

I didn’t move I didn’t stop doing what you asked
I just wanted it to be over

As you wrapped your fingers around my neck you crushed the word as it clawed out
Your soft pressure on my throat was enough to sumbit my no to silence

I think I have been sad for so long,
That I don't know how to be anything else.

A tree falls in the forest,
and it doesn't make a sound.

A man yells in the forest,
and local wild life forms a mob.

A man falls in the forest,
and he doesn't make a sound.

A tree yells in the forest,
and we all run like hell.

Thank you,
For the boundless discourses
For the endless laughters
For the daily greetings
And for the random I love you’s

Never will I complain,
Listening to your words
Nor to your bubbly giggles
Or even reading your daily remarks
Especially listening to your sweet declarations

Remember that I’ll always,
Get excited to hear the things that made your day
Look forward to your sweet voice every night
Be thrilled to read your morning greetings
And patiently wait for our times together

Most of all,
Your chapter is my favourite page
Our story is my favourite book
And you? My favourite person.

keep me in the
pocket of your jacket

love me in the
corner of your heart

dream of me in mantis shrimp
colouration.
think of me when doth
shatter thine heart.

if i could be
what i would need
myself I lose;
myself I dream