I may look like a blooming flower of spring,
but I'm just a melodious bird, which can't even sing

my existence may feel like a pretty serenity,
but my presence is the profound definition of insanity

your illuminating light adorns anything,
but my 'precious' darkness is too much adored to
accept your everything

yet your cute laugh, and those pursed lips
they take my breath away, and my heart slips

I'd always want to take all the pain, and the blame,
but did you know that we bleed the same?

I'd never twist all my love, and send it to flame,
because did you know that we bleed the same?

love;            why are you not in hearts anymore?
feelings;      do you even exist anymore?
kindness;    why have you left me alone?
sadness;      do you not leave me so I wont atone?
life;              why do you have to be so unfair?
fate;             do you have to act so cruel?
calm;           why are you only there in the Chaos?
sorrow;       will i ever let you go?
happiness;  haven't felt you around lately...
grief;           don't leave me, I've grown fond of you greatly...
tears;           I'm sorry, you'll have to hide forever...
smiles;        forgive me for faking you, to conceal all the terror...
eyes;            please stop screaming my soul's secrets...
heart;           let it all go and lets save your pieces

soul;            you are there, but are you alive?

Its a given that eventually I'll mess up,
beside all the misery, I'll always fill your cup.

But,

I'm afraid to rupture your fragile heart
It frightens me that your love would someday depart

oh! you blessed me with oblivion,
a pretty disguise,
and i was touched by serendipity,
a sorrowful hymn.
It broke me, when you yearned
with those sad eyes,
which wondered how could one forget
the taste of his own love
and such lies

the 'decree' of life, which i cannot breach,
tell me how to keep myself away from your reach.

You cannot save me from my own confessions,
all this sadness is making me Despair's possession

I know eventually I'll mess up and leave
because I'm bound to misery, and sorrow is what I heave

all the things I have learnt, and can't teach,
I'll pass them to you, and believe you'd preach

but don't let my words put you in a trance
don't forget I have a mask, 'cause all they need is just a chance

I was in there rooted,
inside the hole you created.

The words were resonating,
yet the memories were only fading

The cold in the hole was too quite, quite,
that I fell in love with it at the first sight.

Though I thought of never leaving the shattered hole,
even if I had a chance for it,
but then some lights just dwells in the beloved darkness,
and I too couldn't resist to it.

sadness whispers to me, in the frozen time
the rumors reached me in a melodious hymn

words resonates, in the aching sighs
memories, still living in these pretty lies

the moment her eyes met mine
all those walls cracked, and my world started to shine

In all those lonely nights with my broken self,
when no one came to save me from this hell
I looked forward to catch your eyes gazing at mine
and thought of getting mesmerized by your sweet chimes

I wanted to feel it down to the core
so when this dream is over, I grieve, I had to make sure

I'm running from this reality just once more
to fall for her alluring deep eyes once more

lunatic they may call me
but i found an eternity in her for me

even if its short lived it would become a part of my entity
all your adorable laughs will be with me for infinity