I'm lesbian so what
I'm gay so what
I'm bisexual so what
I'm ******* transgender so what
At least i know who the **** I am
I'm pansexual so what
I'm ******* me
I'm myself
If you don't like it
I love it
If you don't care
I cherish it forever
If you hate me
I love you
I'm LGBT
Who the **** are you
Hahaha

Life is like a boat it's smooth sailing half way through then all of a sudden it gets rocky you start running into rocks almost about to sink then it's back to smooth sailing you start to heal then life hits you again or in this case a rocky shore there is no end to these changes they come and go as they please making your life a living hell making your life unbearable to live in life is like a boat smooth then rocky

The voices in my head are crazy they yell at me
Bark at me scream at me I guess their all the same
I try not to listen it doesn't work they scream
My name, I scream "STOP IT""STOP IT PLEASE ""WHAT DID I DO WRONG" they torment me call out to me
Drive me, crazy what to do what to do
SCREAM!!!!!!!! SCREAM!!! SCREAM!!!!
I look into the fire and see my future
I'm burning, dying and the voices laugh at me, they carry a tone, a tone of jolly, and cruelty,  
The voices yell at me, scream at me
The voices **** me
I can't  be saved
I'm already dead
Their is silence

Lol is laugh out loud correct wrong
Lonley
Outcast
Left

Lunatic
Oblivious
Love

Leaving
Out
Life

Leaving
Our
Life

Lost
On
Love

Like
One
Lifetime

Living
On
Lo­ve

I hear the names I'm called, I hear the disgusting comments they say about me do I do anything no why because I'm who IAM and I didn't choose this but I accepted who I was so what I love men, here's how I see it the reason you pick on others is because you haven't come  to terms of who the hell you are, you haven't accepted who you really are so really the joke is on you

I walked the waters of time, I've seen many things, heard many things, did many things. I wish once, I wished twice, I failed and I failed again, I once loved but never again, I hated and I was punished for it, I was curious but only in my mind how do you know when your life Is almost over, or when your life takes an unexpected turn, when in life do you make a difference, when your dead or alive, when its your last moment to live or your first, how do you comprehend the love of others, the love of your loved ones, the love of your haters, tell me when is life easier to handle than death, when is life worse than death, worse than life itself, and then death again . when will love be more than life, than life itself, when will the hatred stop and turn into love, but what who would we be without hatred, at the same time who are we, what is our title, our name, our description
who are we really

They stopped, they all just stopped, I watched as the time slowed down slower and slower until nothing. No cars were honking,  no shoes clacking, nobody shouting just silence. I yelled but it was overcome by silence nothing. I try to move but my feet are stuck, and the more I move I go deeper in the ground like quick sand but not quicksand, the guy next to me, I know him I think, I think I know all these people.  They don't say anything,  they don't do anything, I scream again only to find nothing, hear nothing. Its cold but I don't see my breath,  my heart is beating unsteadily like  it's afraid to beat.

Imagine waking up one day and you could have anything you wanted , Family , friends, boyfriend or girlfriend. Just everything you could ever want then one day your friends aren't your friends anymore , your family doesn't talk to you anymore and the boy or girl you thought loved you  tells you he/she never had any feelings for you that they only talked to you because they felt sorry for you. You think you're all alone , no friends no family , no love just alone in a cold hearted world thinking a razor is home and the cuts are the momeories of what meant the world to you then one day you loose it and you're gone.

You live a serious, secret life, a life that only you know about, a life unknown to man. This life is full of pain and happiness, love, and betrayal, this life you were king, you were powerful, but in this life there's a trouble, a trouble you don't even know about, a distraction only they can see, this life you are gay, you are different but in this life everybody is different, this life is abnormal, unknown to man special in your mind, crazy In your heart, but what's so secret in this world isn't the love, pain, happiness, betrayal, but it's you, because you aren't you the same as they aren't them, you get me now.
There is a life unknown to man, spectacular in the mind of the believers, but a joke to those who refuse to see reality, sanctuary for the weak, but a joke to the strong, peace for the judged, another joke for the unjudged, there is a life unknown to Man, unknown to creature but only, and only if you believe, you shall see, and your imagination shall open.

I see them, the soles of dead slaves, they talk to me, tell me things, I see them in the fire burning, screaming for them to stop, I hear the whips wapp, wapp,  I feel every strike do you know what that's like, to see the hurt and scars, to feel their pain as if it was you getting the beating, they were out there while the white man was sleeping, in their with another woman, his wife didn't know he was cheating, the molestation of African American women so brutal, so violent, you try to get over it but you cant, wat are we doing laying in the blood of our ancestors, wat are we doing rewriting history, But is it possible we can come together as one and live in unity, and not poverty, is it possible that maybe just maybe we could look into each other's eyes and call ourselves friends ,it is possible but it's only possible if we all try (together).

I'm judged don't matter
I'm misunderstood don't matter
I'm me that matters
Being forgotten, being lost
The long faces, the rejection,the deception, Being judged its mad,
Being accepted joyful, being understood exciting, being treated fairly it's right, treat me right I'm glad, but leave me their I'm heartbroken, you mistreat me, iam me, judge me iam me, hate me iam me, Love me iam me trust me IAM me we are one and we are all

Happiness is a sham
A hopeless case of dream
And fulfillment
That will never happen
Anger the self riotous  mind is
Gullible for
It falls for it like a mouse in a mouse
Trap
Sadness the weak minded
The helpless me you
Us
We all
Help
Its a cry
A message
A message of danger
      
       Words they all mean something it just takes a certain somebody to explain them

Once you love someone
it's either real or just a big lie.
feelings just don't go away in a flash
your heart belongs to that person
they mean everything to you
even if they break your heart into pieces
they will always have your heart
it will always be real to you
if they don't love you back
it'll hurt more then anything else in the world
but still you find a reason to love them
even if someone else comes along and sweeps
you off your feet
you still find a reason to love the person
even if it kills you

Touch my body caress it love it
Make me scream for more love me
Hug me tight don't let me go
Kiss me till my lungs go dry
Don't stop lovin me cause I'll stop Livin, envelope me with passion
Teach me to let go
Don't let go
Hold me
Carry me into the dark
Its to dark I want your light
I want you and only you
You lied to me I saw you
You touch me I shiver confused by your sweet aroma, enveloped by your love
Let me go, free me
I'm in the dark I need your light
Help me wats wrong with you
You hate me
You left me
I lay their in complete darkness
Where is your light
That sweet aroma
Your lost to me
Goodbye

We want things, we ask for things, we love things, we hate things, we cherish things, I love you, you love me it's the same thing but so different it's so simple but yet complicated the world round me round you round, I have pain I see your pain you have pain you see my pain, I love you you love me it means the same thing but doesn't it's simple but complicated

The walls are thin very fragile like me
I'm fragile, but only on The outside on the inside
I'm as thick as can be
Break me you get me
Crush me you get me
Hurt me you get me
Love me and you shall see
What's been hiding underneath
Me

Imagine this you are no longer you but someone else
How would you feel, you would like it at first
But then it would begin to tear a part who you
Really are, becoming somebody besides yourself
Is the worst way to go, you said you'll never ****
Yourself look at what your doing now
You promised you wouldn't do anything stupid
You did, you told me you will always be yourself
You lied, you told me you loved me, you cheated,
When you left you said you'll always remember me
But when we met again you didn't even remember
My name, who are you, you aren't the person I know
Stuck in somebody else's body, I didn't get to tell you I'm sorry, You made me promise to never leave my self,
But how can you make me promise if you can't keep it yourself,
You couldn't swim I had to teach you,
Now you can, you act like you don't need me
But who was their through thick and thin,
Without me you will never win Is this really you
Or is it a cover up,  do you really know me Or was our
Life a lie do I know you or am I a lie
         Iam lost

Look to the hill tops, look for burning trees, souls screaming, animals running while set ablaze, minds racing, look to the hill tops, for forgiveness, for happiness, for peace, look to the hill tops, where the four winds are blowing, look to the hill tops, so you can imagine, just imagine how those hill tops can be anything you want them to be, ha, when looking to the hill tops you see the horizon, you see a beautiful sky, a sky only made up by your imagination, a sky so beautiful you can't believe you made It up, look to the hill tops,  where one day you to will be free

IAM gay, I choose to be gay because that's what I feel I need to be I'm not afraid to tell people that I'm gay because it's true, theirs no need to hide my emotions just because I think I'm going to get picked on, wait let's talk about being picked on, I think that the people being bullies have no life or they have to bully people because they are being bullied at home and they brush their emotion on others, but what people don't understand is Bullying is hurtful it brakes people apart gives them low self-esteem and kills them bullying is a weapon people  use to harm others, bullying is dangerous, I'm gay and I will stand up to anyone who tries to bring me down or try to use that against me, I will fight for what's right doesn't matter if it's peace, rights, love, care, equality, yes I will fight for all these things but let me ask you this what are you fighting for?

My life is changing taking turns I don't want it to turn
You flip me upside down
I'm blind
You said you hated me
You never wanted to see me again
My life is a speed bump always taking the fall
My soul is torn to pieces
Unable to pick them up I cry
I scream
I
I
I fall
My mind went berserk
Just snapped
It fell apart
I'm confused
Shaken

Death
Blood
Pain
Love
Happyness
Death
Blood
Pain
Love
Happyness
Death
Blood
Pain
Love
Happyness
This is the order
This is a new beginning
DEATH
BLOOD
PAIN
LOVE
HAPPYNESS
these are the words
A new beginning
DEATH
BLOOD
PAIN
LOVE
HAPPYNESS
DEATH
DEATH
DEATH

GOODBYE


SAVE ME



SOMEBODY

You told me you loved me, you told me I was the only one, how many times are you going to break my heart,  you said you loved me, now is that true

Locked away in a cell, a little cell, where the ground is below me, and theirs no wall to protect me, when the wind blows I feel every ******, when the rain falls I feel every wet drop, when the snow falls I feel nothing but pain, I feel cold, not freezing from the outside, but cold on the inside like I have nothing there I'm hollow like a log, but on the outside everything freezes but me and my spot, it's spring oh the warmth, how I wish I could enjoy it, I remember way back when I used to make leaf piles and jump in, and then make them again then jump back in, and kept doing that till it was time to eat, but after I Ate I did it again and again and again until it was time for bed, as I'm trapped those are the only thoughts that me from doing totally insane and just say one day I GIVE UP, those memories gives me hope that one day I will get out, I will break free, but for right now it's hot, now I long for as breeze, even at night it's blazing, ever time I see the sun come up I long for, confess something, all my regrets, once I said I regret not finding love, because now that's what I long for, for someone to hold me, kiss me, tell me they love, but that will never happen because deep down I know the truth, I know, that I'm going to be stuck in this trap for the rest of my life, how ironic don't you think