I am swimming in the words I am trying to hold back
scared that you’ll dive away
from the projections of my feelings
and all its intensity

you showed me your smile
and with that you had me
you know you have me
I just don’t know if I have you.

Fear.
That's what engulfed me
and my heart
before I could risk anything.
I could never put my best foot forward
when it came to you
knowing that I may never get a chance.
I could never make a move towards you
knowing that at some point,
we may end up further apart than what we already are

In my desire to cease my longing,
I drew away myself away from you
only to suffer an unquenchable thirst,
one that only you can provide a relief to

I'm sure you'd be surprised
if I told you,
a part of me still wants to be with you.
I'm sure you'd be surprised, if I even told you,
I wanted you, and I have always liked you
Because in the end,
I regret the path I chose to deviate from,
I regret not taking my chances with you
I regret, not trusting you
Because we could have been forever,
and we'd never know.

i lost myself in you
and you won't allow me to retrieve myself
i can't find the way back to you
because all your efforts are to ignore me
to drown me
and barricade yourself from me
a lot..no everything in me,
is lost in you
and i don't know how to get it back.

Will i ever get myself back again
or do I need to rebuild myself
again,
and again?