Take a look at yourself
You can aspire
Have the fire, passion, and precision
To reach even higher
It is in you
Challenge yourself
Make your world impeccable
Reach for that top shelf

The sun forgave itself
long ago, for burning too bright,
it scorched our touching palms,
cheek to cheek, it burnt.*

That night we whispered
A song to the reeds,
Let it drift down that
Wayward line of memories,
Let it settle in the graves
Of each bed we slept in.

We let fate colour our
Hearts recklessly, like a
Child who can't stay
Within the confined lines
Of their drawing book.

Until the dawn began,
And we let our skin simmer,
Melting on each other's lips.
Until we are only skeletons
Embracing through a
World set in flames.

When the sun is shining bright
And butterflies fly around,
The birds whistle with delight
And kids roll on the ground,
So innocent and carefree.
But soon when clouds hide the sun's light,
the butterflies go unnoticed,
The bird's sounds unheard,
The kids, grown up,
Get involved in the real world.

Nothing has changed.
I still feel drained.
I am still the heartbroken girl I was months ago.
You really would think I would know.
But I fall time and time again.
Thinking that maybe this time they'll actually want to be my friend.
But it's always a lie.
Or the love always will die.

Because who could love a girl like me. and everyone loves a boy like him. and there always be a him that I will fall in love with things will never be alright the broken hearted girl.

Do we to be wanted / when we want / to be wanted.

Do we cling to scripts / write new tales / fail our trip.

Is it a 'cheap trick' / to 'want you to want me' / in our need to self-inflict.

Do we want to be wanted / when we / want to be wanted.

Do we yearn deep warmth / of another / to soothe our storms.

Our ego screams / to be heard / to be seen.

Our ego wants more / to be the earth in air / yet it is only just a spore.

Is it there / more to give / enough to share.

I want to show/ but stay inside / play to the glow.

I want to lean in close /  inside your throes / feel your dose.

Is it enough / to inhale your scent / to calm my tough.

My warmth expands / as I yearn / to feel your warm hand.

My coldness shares / my doubt and fear / of love too scared.

We sit still / telling our story / yearning to fill another thrill.

We dig holes / deep inside / to keep ourselves whole.

We all want worth / to be / to be wanted / wanted since birth.

Swept away like a gust of wind that flows right through my heart I am paralyzed.
Unable to move I close my eyes wondering if this moment is real.
Consumed by feeling ecstatic I awaken, eyes staring right into yours.
Suddenly struck by reality; realizing this moment is real a rush of happiness spreads through my veins.
As if a balloon swelled up in my chest, my heart beats rapidly, calming as our lips meet.
Taking my breath away all my worries drift away into the midst of time only to be flown back to me after we part ways.
Never wanting to leave you I feel as if my heart turns to stone for this great burden holds me as you disappear from view.
You are my hope, my lighthouse when I am lost, for I know you will be there when I need you, forever.
Always with you to never leave my mind, heart, soul...I am with you, forever.

You give me butterflies

I've never understood that phrase.
Butterflies are
majestic
beautiful
colorful floating snow flakes
in the summer breeze.

You don't give me *butterflies.

My butterflies
aren't light little fingers tickling me.
They are strong hands
wringing my insides
squeezing them out of me
like I'm a tube of tooth paste.

But what comes out is an unruly passion for you.

It seeps through my pores
and comes as zits on my nose,
but they don't bother you.
My passion
trickles
from my eyes
as tears at night
wishing I could be held
in your strong
yet graceful arms.
It arrives in words,
that I eventually stutter out as
"Hi"
when I'm next to you.

I sit on a porch swing at a friend's party one night.

You sit next to me
and smile
so bright in my darkness.
You whisper to me,
your lips wisp against my cheek
like delicate wings
and take my hand.
You pull a pen out of
your khakis pocket
and draw a
small
simple
butterfly.

And as cheesy as it was you whispered to me

"You give me butterflies"
A huge smile came across my face
glowing with yours in the night.
I took the pen in my hand
and drew another
butterfly
but on your palm
and replied,
*"So do you."

One day, in early September,
is a day I will forever remember.
The day we had a secret love
hidden within us,
we were in my room and you
bent down and kissed me;
when you stopped I just lay there
and I looked above,
I looked to the celling that was bare.
and you turned around and let me be
the kiss was so out of the blue
and so full of love.

I slowly turned over to you
and made you look back
into my eyes,
which did not hold back.
There were no lies
no secrets within,
they were all for you,
as they had  always been.
They were full of empty ties.
When you kissed me, i knew,
that was my que.

(unfinished adding rest later)