Unworthy-
31/January/2021
1.22Am

That day when you asked if you could tell me a secret
I was so excited,
But to be honest I freaked out.
I was so unworthy of that weight.
My simple heart cannot hold such pressure.
The weight you are carrying.
The knowledge that you've earned.
I felt so unworthy of the words that would spill out of your lips.
That day I felt something different.
I thought I knew knowledge,
I thought I knew how to take life as easily as a floating feather.
I thought I knew how to take my problems and put it down with my fists.
I thought I knew what is love.
But that day your eyes told me a different story.
Your eyes showed me a story of a thousand nights.
A forest of thousand lives.
A Library with thousand books.
A universe of thousand skies.

Your eyes asked for trust that day
It asked for a chamber with a lost key,
Locked away and cannot be found for eternity.

But I am just a human.
Unworthy of the treasury you wanted to give.
Illiterate to the feelings you wanted to share.
And unworthy of your trust.

So he stood there with nothing left to see,
on the edge of the roof
looking down to the street.
seeing the flickering lights of cars,
seeing all the meaning less rush.

Looking at the clock one more time,
thinking about what he left behind,
his family friends,
and all the faces he could think.

Just like the sun he tried to shine,
burning himself he tried to give light.
helping the family and friends,
Only a little acknowledgment he wanted to feel.

slowly he realized life wasn't fair,
He will never get anything here.
thinking about life made him depressed
he searched for friends
But only loneliness he could get.

He forgot to love himself,
now he is standing by the edge.
He  smiled and smiled a tears of joy.
Finally he will kiss the death goodbye.

Will you marry me?
Because I am meant with broken pieces
I want you to see them
And put them in to perfect place.

Will you love me?
Because I am the person who gets left behind
I am the type of person who wants to talk but can’t
I am the type of person who is so polite that people leave me
So if u agree to love me please don’t leave

Will you walk beside me?
When I walk alone in dark night
Stars become the only listener
Trees clean my path
If u want to then please don’t leave when the road is too rough

Will u hold my hand?
When no one is around
When I decide to go to wrong path
When I don’t love myself anymore
When I don’t want to live
But please don’t leave when we will face difficulties.

every second i wanted to say i love you,
but was afraid if you would say i love you too.
cz once there was things which were just for me.
but now?
i don't know.
i am too afraid to Know about you.
cz i am afraid i will fall for you.
i fall for your simplicity
i will fall for your savageness
i will fall for how beautifully you describe a story which is not exciting at all.
but,
to be honest,
i am not brave,
i am not brave enough to give you hope.
i am not brave enough to see you laughing with other person.
i am not brave enough to see you laugh when i am not around
cz every second somebody is falling for you
your options are increasing
and mine?
just you.

Just DON'T
              they
                     WILL
                           hurt you

Love yourself
25. Feb. 2021 7:34 PM
Safiul Alam

Sometimes look back
Just to see how far you've come.
To see the pain you've gone through.
To see the memories you've made.

Look back,
Just to see how far you've grown.
Just like a free you've spread your roots searching for water or comfort.
Look back
But I warn you.
Just like the roots of tree your efforts will be hidden.
And Just like a newly planted tree
You may not seem that strong.

But Just like the tree
know that the efforts you've given did not went in vein.

You've grown
Just like a mountain.
May be you do not see it
but a mountain was once a pebble
A building was once a brick
A tree was once a seed.
Don't Judge too hard know that it takes time.

Someday when it's hard to get up
and the shoulders seems way too heavy
The sky seems darker
And you look back and you see nothing,
Know that, for that day you were successful
Because you are breathing.

Life is good at knocking you down,
And it is good at hurting you
And in those days,
Only thing you have to do is to get up.
Because there is no way down.
Your back is against the wall
You've hit the rock bottom
And all you can think about giving up
But, Just know that you've come so far
Your only option is to get back up and walk forward.
And if you are looking for someone to work for
Just look in the mirror.