I've built this wall around myself
To shield my heart from the pain
Like the caterpillar, I hide
Until I'm finally free to find
A love to fly with me in the rain

"Who are you?"
Those words pierce through me like knives in my heart.
Wish I could help you remember.
You are different now.
I do not recognize you, even though I "know" you.
I don't understand how you can be so close to someone and then they not have a clue as to who you are.
It's so painful.
I hope I will get you back.
Things will never be the same.
I don't want to lose you...again..
I want to help...
But how?!?

give me a memory,
any memory,
where you are happy,
and it can mask,
the worst thing ever said,
the meanest thing ever done,
the crudest thing you ever saw
and I'll not write anymore.

Someone else is saying goodbye,
Their last breath slipping out of the grasp
of pale petal lips.
Someone else is at the ledge,
Taking one last step into the abyss
to enter eternal nightfall.
Someone else is wearing the rope,
Preparing to leap and swing
back and forth, back and forth.
Someone else is holding the blade,
Sliding it into soft, soft skin
to create a chasm.
Someone else has said goodbye,
Lost their last breath
to remember who they love.

Feeling worst
I Want rest

Tired of feeling bad
I’m glad
That yet I haven’t become mad
With all these sad