Do I want to enter wholeheartedly
Or is it easier to prohibit emotion?
Trustworthiness is earned
Yet falling seems inevitable
How can I respond,
When my heart is still broken from the last
I want to give it my all
Disregarding the past

In the general I am abiding
Recording scenarios of importance
Scheming with the nobles
To hire a switching head
It’s unsafe to continue into tomorrow
Implode before you try
A trial worth a single coin
Flares can’t cause immense pain upon
A swath of amenities foregoing change
Bringing a forceful bond.
Sometime will be worthwhile
Though not today, another mile
Will do to aid in your indoctrination, darling
The experience of a lifetime
Hopeless admiration runs deeply
Seeping into uneducated minds
Representation becomes toxic and all I want is
To see you strive for one more nod
It’s unusual to not want you
But my mind weaves mysterious trails
Through the broken lifetime - reality…
Coding your brain to the desires of a higher party
Dominate the status and ride this new wave
I’ll be stuck in a cave, resolving a memory
You have no influence on me
Boredom overflows from the outside in
I’m sick, I’m disgusted, I am injured within
Let the girl sleep, she’s lost in her dreams
Taking the drive
One image at a time
Making an accidental stop
At the house of your mother
Uneasy like no other
Fighting to be free, run away with me
Or from me, depending on
Desperate grievances that conduct an old light
Of the movement, I am fond.
Tripping on feedback
Hesitant to paint your head black
So sick of the stacks
Piling up on the table, advances unable
Common brainchilds I may lack.
A swampy movie to preoccupy
Tearing everything down

behind a roadblock standstill
no one I meet could ever fulfill
take your thoughts, your actions, your words
and lay to rest at the foot of God
the future is approaching slowly
I arrive with caution
a wary understanding
and a repeatedly broken heart
this time shall be the last
as ever to gasp for air
above and below, it's a circus show
and I am the center stage.
with eyes glossed over and a malicious intent
goodbye to all the years I've spent
in doubt, in service, in pride
I'll travel alone for this ride.

Dark and senseless
It all seems endless
Where frozen memories abide
Entering the lives of the unborn
A patch of emotional stability
To keep her sane til night
She's clothed in white
Knowingly guilty but she tries to hide
Colored with doubt,
The memories play out
Not a single scene she remembers

don't be fooled by a timeless illusion
it's possible that, in the absence of culture, there is enough time to change a perspective
these rhythms make my head spin
scattered confetti in place of tired eyes
as the road swerves, not the driver
desperately praying to remove all thoughts and replace them with song
In theory, it works, but it won't ever
take my body to a permanent venue
a flowing lake overtaken by drowning flocks

to invent excusable outcomes
new man? new problems
awaiting me when I come home
can't I just blend forever
into the back of this car seat
maybe so then quiet can fulfill
attending false needs
and rectifying foreign relations
which never resembled harmony.
you lay out the floor plan
address solvable issues
but perhaps I'd rather rely
on the uncertainty a nighttime friend delivers
so I'll stay out here
among creations of another king
until the choir softens
leaving fate to determine
upon further mystery.

don't be fooled by the majority
your people are right in front
they're hiding behind
louder voices and
****** languages
the quiet ones really know
take it at face value
if you don't want an answer
when they're called out
that's when
you'll know who's for real

Donne moi du temps
Mais fais le pas durer pour toujours
On a reçu la même opportunité
Mais je te laisse l'avoir cette fois
Juste rencontre moi là
Trente secondes jusqu'à quatre
Je me placerais dans tes rêves
Et te donnerais le goût de la liberté
Peut-être que je peux changer ton avis
Peut-être que tu changeras le miens

you can throw your hands up
I wouldn't care
you can bounce through the hallways
fingers in your hair
I won't look away
rather focus upon
the light leaving the day
why should you care?
your gaze shifts on me
like I should have the answer
upon the seam of my sleeve
you can dance in three colors
I could make it four
but you're in your own world
not a foot on the floor

wloud yuo go for em?
I dno't maen as a somlutae
but rhater
a ditasrciton to keep teh rlaetiy aawy?

wuold you go fro me,
so I dno't hvae to go aolne?
I am araifd taht if I eemgre
all tahts lfet wlil be sikn and bnoe.

wloud you go otu for me,
so I dno't hvae to sohw my fcae
in the clod hareetd baet of scioety
and teh dlaiy trerors taht srruuond me?

wolud oyu go for em
nto as a firend
but rhater
a lveor, to hlod froveer and keep aawy the dmeons?

yuo shulodn't go fro me
I cna't ofefr mcuh of aynhting
but I'd rhater it be oyu
tahn me out tehre in the meriaatl wlord

The Eye of Horus taunts
I keep within my walls...
Upon his mistress, he calls
Gory bloodlust haunts.

Secretive sanctions underground
Disguised in white-
Hold me tight-
Every passing brake light...
Keeps her highness spellbound.

she dips her toes in, testing radioactivity
requests slow motion waves at dusk
friends with strangers, plans rearrange
will she lay in troubled happenings?
her love is a virtue, but what if she hurts you?
no intent to stay with just one

he expects absolute devotion
requests exploding praise upon the morning
try hard, but what about the end game?
differences flowing through similar paths
but what he does not realize
she is but a free bird, soaring down valleys with a closed ticker

a threat, self seeker, her morning liqueur, sir
upon further investigation
you're all three

maybe that makes you toxic to me

I am...
wasting away, frozen in the car
picking buzzwords from common conversations
hail clinks against the windshield
a dusty melody envelops her
leftover tears seep into soles
when I could be...
wasting away in the lively sun
throwing away responsibility
as the ocean waves splash against her back
an island aria entices her
the hot pavement beneath sandy soles
where I should be...

Stage 1
barely noticed
consumed in habits
all work, some play
he came for pennies, not love.

Stage 2
experiencing a feeling, too hard explaining
mysterious woman
reappearing in the outskirts of his brain
thinking nothing of it

Stage 3
recognizes her stares
acknowledges her interest.
'how can I twist?'
he begins to play the game.

Stage 4
she is a beauty, will give her that
is it worth it? she has a man
wants to chase
but she isn't the one

Stage 5
keeps her hanging
straight answers are foreign
some day, 'I could have her.'
putting himself first
keeping his image
can't fall off this tower now.

Stage 1
eyes land on you
can't afford to fall now
jokes cracked and feelings suctioned
must be a coincidental circumstance.

Stage 2
dreams being occupied.
vulnerable heart.
guilt takes over.
she longs to stop thinking of him.

Stage 3
maybe she looked
maybe she will wonder
but she has love, can't get hooked.
an undercover feeling seems no harm.

Stage 4
whole body pounding
it's real, happening
guilt turned to justification
her eyes find him once more.
once more, she falls.
once more, he is there.
a simple stare
a short word
she wouldn't dare

Stage 5
her time
perfect schemes, a flawless manipulation
optimism consumes her
but the train screeches
trying harder than before
confused
always worked before!
sometimes it hurts to get used