everytime i look up,
i cry
because the stars remind me of you
and how your eyes shone
everytime you looked at her

you may not be my cup of coffee
but i would like to wake up
to the sight of you
every
****
morning

Seeing you happy
Is like seeing the sun shine
after a stormy day
Is like hearing my favorite song again
For the first time

It is also
Like being run over
By a ten-wheeler truck

Because it hurts
Seeing you happy
Not because of me

Your skin against mine
Marks we would not want to fade
Sounds filling the room

I remember when saying your name
made me swell
Even when we went our seperate ways
letting every syllable of yours
rolll of my tongue
felt sweet
My lips would curve around
each letter letting them slip slowly
from my mouth.

But now,
my throat tightens
chokes against every letter
You have a short name
but it feels like i suffocate against it
Lips pressed tightly against
I dare the letters to sound like they used to
Now your name slices up my tongue
Cracks againsty teeth
Stumbles out silently
What once felt like home, now,
Feels so foreign to my fragile lips