You are not your disease.
You are not depression.
You are not AIDS.
You are not cancer.
You are not asthma.
You are not your diagnosis.
You are so much more than that.
Do not let your disease control your life.
When you look in the mirror
See yourself,
Not your disease.
Do not let your sickness pull you under.
And yes,
swimming at first is hard.
It feels like you are always drowning.
You can’t breathe.
But don’t give up.
Don’t sink.
Keep on fighting.
You are not a slave to your disease.
It is not an anchor
if you don’t let it be.

Tell me why I hold on to you
with the desperation that ill
never see you again.
Tell me why goodbye is so hard.
Tell me why I feel like I annoy you.
Tell me why I constantly need your
confirmation that I don't.
Tell me why I need you to tell me that
you love me every five minutes.
Tell me why I need you to hold me together.
Tell me why I can't do this by myself.
Tell me why I constantly need you by my side.
Tell me why I love you so **** much.
Tell me that i'm not a lost cause.
Tell me that you won't give up on me.
Please tell me.

Ever since I was twelve I have
craved
a woman's touch.
Ever since I could remember I have
had a natural mistrust in men.
I have broke the hearts of many
men because it just wasn't
enough.
I need a woman's touch.
So soft yet strong.
Understanding kisses and familiarity.
Same anatomy telling stories in the dark.
Yes, I need a woman's touch.
To hold me and shape me.

I am needy and codependent
And I forget how to love myself sometimes.
I am clumsy and gangly
And I trip easily.
I am easily angered and moody
And I snap over the smallest things.
I am jealous
And I need to be reminded I am the only girl you want.
I am flawed.
But I am growing.
And you will never find anyone who will love more than me.
I love with the entirety of my being.
I will always be there for you.
I will always be your Sun
And you will always be my Moon.
Help remind me to breathe
And to take every day as it comes.
Grow with me.
Become one with me like a forrest
Because baby I want to get lost in you.

Anger fills my veins
And lust for the razor heightens
It talks to me
Tells me to set him free

Sloth is an anchor
Depression his rope
I am weighed down to my bed
To waste away

Greed runs circles around my head
Gluttony not far behind
Hunger for lavish and
The need to cease the emptiness overwhelms me.

Pride chains me back
I need help
Envy for the dead hits me in the chest
My sins killed me.

I wish I was more like you.
When you break, you push everyone away
and make yourself feel better.
You're strong.
I need constant comfort.
I need you to hold me and kiss me.
Spoil me.
I'm weak.
So easy to break, so fragile.
I'll give you some of my heat if you give me
your frost.
We're like yin and yang.
So alike yet so different.
We're perfect for each other, right?
I believe so.

Your lips feel like satin as I kiss you.
I can never get enough of your kisses.
I am truly addicted to your lips.

Your eyes shine when you look at me.
I could tell any emotion of yours from your eyes alone.
I could I look into your eyes for a lifetime and they would never lose their beauty.
I am truly addicted to your eyes.

Your skin is beautifully tanned bronze.
So beautiful contrasted with mine.
And oh so soft and warm.
Your skin against mine is instant comfort and home.
I am truly addicted to your skin.

Your voice is my favorite music.
It instantly comforts me.
I could pick your voice out of an entire crowd.
And oh God, your laugh.
Your laugh makes my heart melt every **** time I am blessed with hearing it.
I am truly addicted to your voice.

Every part of you is beautiful and perfect.
Your monkey toes to your wild hair.
All of it; amazing.
I will never tire of having you by my side darling.
I long for the day I can wake up with you next to me every morning.
I simply can not wait to make my Moon, my wife.
Because darling, I am truly addicted to you.

Last night when we made love
I couldn't wait to feel your naked body against
mine for the rest of our lives.
This morning when I was getting ready
and you placed your hand on my leg
you instantly calmed me
and I could not wait for you to kiss me
on our wedding day.
Right now I feel so empty with you not here
I can not wait to have you in my arms again.

Looking at old messages
Smiles scamper across my
blank canvas face.
They bring back memories
from that time you held me
out in your front yard
and sheilded me from my monsters
And how every time you kiss me
I feel infinite.
Like the stars that are sprinkled in your eyes
and shine when you sing
with your beautiful voice.
Sing to me baby.
Lull me to sleep with your little piece of heaven.
So that I can awaken to the serene look
on your face when you sleep.
Every step you take is felt on my heart
you're like a circus acrobat
tightrope my heartstrings
baby don't fall; It's deep down there.
Fill me up with your laugh.
Make me feel whole
and i'll be your foundation.