You said I was the only girl you've ever loved.

Why did I do that?
Why am I being so cruel
to you and myself?
I shouldn't have let that happen.
I said we were done
and I meant it.
So why aren't we done?
I'm such a foolish little girl
and you're my heart beat.
I love you.
I hate you.
I love you.
For everything.
****.

Right now my problem is
I can't stop reading all of
these beautiful poems.
The issue here, is
I need to shower
and have a life.
I'm absorbed.
Send help!

we spoke for the first time since..
and you're still hurting
and its killing me.
you're not understanding why
this is the right thing.
you don't want me to leave,
that's understandable.
but i'm not staying and you know it.
i miss you and you miss me but
this can't happen.
i'm so sorry.
i'm so sorry.
i'm so sorry.

I was offered a part in a movie

Can you even act?
I questioned him
and his response startled me.

I act every day*

It was such a simple, twisted answer
that I understood
better then he will ever know.
He opened my eyes to
such a brilliant wording for
how I too felt.
I looked at his mangled face-
stitched up where he tore it open,
above his right eye down across his nose.
I pondered how I could
know a person forever, yet
have them be a complete stranger to me.

I found your love letter today. I couldn't open it.