i watched a boy turn into sound waves. his blue eyes made my heart catch in my throat and the way his hands danced among black and white keys made me ache to become a beautiful melody.

i watched a boy become a beacon, illuminating the world with a smile i didn't know could exist, i know now why the sun is so bright, it's in competition with his heavenly glow.

i watched a boy fall back to earth at 6,000 miles per hour head first into a crowd rush. he never looked back. never hesitated. and the trust he had in those people was enough to make me cry.

often
i try out your words on my
tongue
turning them around in a cherry stem knot
i press my lips together as
your eyes stare into me
they fill with blood and become
warm and soft and
pink

To The Girl Who Has The Privilege To Love Him
1. He is quite shy, although he looks tough he will be too timid to talk to you
2. He will hold you as if you are the most precious thing in the world,
no diamonds could ever compare to you
3. When his lips land on your cheek you will be free of all worries,
but only temporarily.
4. He is stellar at making you feel special, but he treats every girl like this
5. You'll never love someone the way you love him
6. He's not very good at taking care of himself. Please take care of him for me.
Make sure he gets enough water, he always hated drinking it.
7. He hardly sleeps. Encourage him to nap, offer your lap when he needs rest.
He will love the comfort of your legs, and knowing you're close.
8. He loves sugar cookies, I used to bake them for him,
he likes 5 cups of sugar instead of 3.
9. Borrow his jackets. He smells like home and I swear to God you will feel
so loved when you wear them.
10. Send him pictures of yourself. A lot. He loves seeing you happy, don't forget to smile.
11. He doesn't get angry often but when he does you'll cry. Not because he's hurting you
but because you simply can't bear seeing him upset.
12. It's always friends before you. Don't force him.
13. He says " I love you" a lot. You'll remember every time he says it.
14. He likes walking you to your bus stop after band practice,
even if it means he has to walk 3 miles home alone.
15. Don't tell him you cried because of something he did. He will never forgive himself
16. Kiss him a lot, while you still can.
17. You'll fall way too hard for him
18. Please treat him well, he deserves the best and only offers the best.
19. Don't get mad at him. Please. i understand sometimes he does bad things
but he's doing his best. i made that mistake one too many times and i still regret it.
20. Give him all the love you can, please i beg you. Treat him right.

i dreamt that i liked you
my heart pounding on my rib cage
like a prisoner aching to get out of a cell
you looked heavenly

i dreamt that i kissed you
your lips dripping sugar
and some shimmering powder
i could have sworn was fairy dust

i dreamt that i loved you
i let you into my heart with
my hands shaking waiting
for my undoing, but it never came

i woke with your name in my mouth
you heart beating in time with
the inevitable unrelenting force
of truth,

that you loved me too