I am in a state where I am
physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally tired.
My mouth is in silent,
but if you could just read my mind,
There is endless shouting and mindless overthinking.
No one should know the battle that I am fighting,
For they can't hand me any armor that could win the fight.
It's hard to keep the hope alive,
when everything in you has already died.
I am alone, and no one can save me.
It's just me, my inner demons,
and that little faith I have in my pocket.

Of all the weapon that you used,
Your silence was the most violent.

I had enough.
I never wanted you to leave,
But you don't want to stay.
I always beg for your time and affection,
But you're so greedy that even a second you can't offer.
I remembered you just seenzoned my message,
It took a couple hours for you to reply.
I was hoping I could see you that day,
But you just threw my heart away.
I am tired and I can't do this anymore.
I had enough.
I guess your love for me is not enough.

Oh moon, why so lovely?
Together, we first saw you on February.
We missed you on March,
But we saw you rise and your beauty.
I was hoping we could share this feeling forever,
But I stare you alone in April,
Not knowing the first is the last.
Not knowing the feelings didn't last.

Tears I'm trying to hold back,
Pain that's stuck in my chest,
Words I want to shout,
Situations inside my head.

I'm trying with all my might,
this tears not to fall when you're on sight.
In my back I'm carrying a heavy load,
I think I'm gonna explode.

You like because,
while
You love despite.

How to remove my doubts and fear?
Tell me.

I want to see the sunrise in your eyes,
Like how I see my future with you.
I want to see the sunset in your smile,
Like how you made me fall in love with you.