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Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
Because you asked
I thought you knew
That I loved and needed you

Always hesitating anew
It’s hard being me
Waiting for you

Hoping you will come through
With the right answer
At the right time

My question:
Will you be mine?


Happy Valentines Day
Pat LeDuc
February 14, 2018
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
I needed the time alone
   Is what she said on the phone
      His call had set the tone

Never showing up
   He was so abrupt
      His words so corrupt

No reason
   No rhyme
      Not this time

I am on my own
   All alone
      Just like I said on the phone
Original 10/11/03~Released~ 4/04/18
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
I wait by my door
My head between my knees
Hands on my face
My eyes flowing with tears
Rocking and rocking trying to pray
No answers to unasked questions today

I think I think not sure what to say
So low so low with nowhere to go
Shake and let the butterflies out
No room for them in my brain
Pulling my hair just to feel pain
Fresh unfettered scars remain

In my bathrobe I lay
In my bathrobe I stay
Not getting dressed
No reason to care

My door will not open
It is no longer there
Bipolar Musings
~Straight Out Of My Mind~
9/16/16
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
Gather up this new love
That was sent from above
Now it is ours to share

So to God send a thank you prayer

Give us inspiration to do for each other
What one could not do alone

Savor each moment as if it were the last
Live in the future, not in the past

Be prepared for sacrifice
Take heavenly advice

Don’t think once
Think twice !

So batten down the hatches
Tie up the mast

God is here at last

To help us ride out the storm
Of love brewing in our hearts

God is the Captain of our love at last
New love defined
Original 10/14/03
Posted 04/28/18
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
I can’t get up it hurts my ****
My knees go out I start to weep
I can’t stay awake
I can’t go to sleep
I’ve done what I can
So now I count sheep

My circuits are crossed
I stay home all day
With nothing to say
I’m lost and alone
So this is my life?
But at what cost?

My mental health is up for grabs
I am bipolar and it plays tricks on me
Sometime I fly more times I fall
So this is my life
I don’t want to play anymore

I take my meds as I should
Sometimes they work
Sometimes no more
Then I spiral down
To dwell in my hell
No one notices.
No one to tell

Don’t remember today
But remember the past
My apartment is not a house
Nor is it a home
So I am alone so alone

Try to read a book
But the words run away
I wonder what they have to say
I’m going shopping at the bipolar store
I need an upgrade but I won’t find it there
9/15/16 by Pat LeDuc
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
How did this happen?
What did I do?
I try to control it
I try not to believe it
It happens so fast
Not much I can do
Manic...x...two

I scream and I cry
Oh no not again
I know the symptoms
But they creep up to fool me
Tried distracting it
Tried to watch TV
Walk around and around and
Around the room

Manic, manic, manic
Top of the room feeling panic
Whoopee Bipolar is here again


Hoping my feet touch the ground
It follows me
My brain...is not sound
It beckons me still
Again and again
I take the good and the bad
Trying to cope
Holding out for hope
9/30/16 written by Pat LeDuc
Bipolar is frame of reference to a normal life
Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018
My Mind is on the other side of Your soul
The one you think you can control
Your soul is a noxious ghoul
Hiding in that foul waste
I see through your face
I know
Of your tremendous deceit
You create chaos
So you won’t be found
Yet there you are
Peeking around
Breaking in to my mind
So that I will never find

~My way alone~
Better to know I’m not your fool
Bipolar Musings
~Straight out of my mind~
Pat LeDuc
4/27/18
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