You keep saying how you want me
But you stay with her
How you don't trust her
And how you trust me

You keep saying you'll feed my addictions
But can't you see
My addiction now is you

You keeping saying how I shouldn't put myself down
But here you are slicing yourself open

"You're so perfect."
"I'll never leave you"
"No matter what I'm here for you."
They all said the same thing
But where are they now?
Nowhere to be ******* seen

All these white lies
And small tricks
Are driving me insane
Wrapping me around your finger
Tighter and tighter then before
The noose wraps around my heart
And slowly chokes out the life in me

o.g.

No matter where I went
The taste of your lips followed me
Every corner
Every store
The very breeze whispering by
Reminded me of you

No matter what I ate
I still felt those pills
Traveling down my throat
Cold water trailing behind

No matter how many times I tried to think of someone else
I always thought of you
The way you laughed
How you smiled
Why you noticed me
How your sweatshirt outlined your muscles hiding underneath

You're forever on my mind
And I can't get you out
I guess I have to say

You are my drug

o.g.

I'm scared you'll never come back
But I know someday you will
Be it this week
Or the next
As long as I can welcome you with open arms
And make you feel wanted

I'm sorry for being such a *****
Making it seem like I was mad at you
When really I wasn't

I'm going crazy with worry here
Wondering if you're okay
If you would want to see me
If you'll ever forgive me for all the ****

No matter what happens
I'll always try to be there for you
We've been through so much together
And I want to be able to stay with you
Until we're both laying in hospital beds
Blowing out candles at our 105th birthday parties
Where we can only eat jello
And drink apple juice

We still have to go to the park
Take funny pictures
Use Kavan as our model
Laugh over old stories
Climb strawberry hill once more
Go to England
Get our first tattoos
All of the plans we made
We still need to carry out

I love you

o.g.