i'm a maniacal insomniac
and i don't ******* know how to act
you ask if i'm the brains or brawns,
but it's innocence i ******* lack

hacking, coughing, left and right
i'm vomiting up blood all night
bile and last night's spaghetti shows up
like little worms, it's a ******* sight

maybe i'm sick
or you're just being a ******* ****
i say i'm fine
is that a crime?
i'm just running out of time...

lashing out a cry for help,
i'll sadly sit and cry.
sobbing,
               sobbing,
                              sobbing more
                                                          without a reason why.

I simply wish to be happy.
Is that too much to ask?
I want to stay with you,
Be there for you.
But you don't want that.
You don't want me.

You have my heart
Held firmly in your grasp
Dear, you’re a work of art
And I **** hope we last

Thinking of you,
I laugh and smile
Do you have a clue
How much I love you?

how can i do
a n y
of this
when you're just
better?
.
.
.
.

You’re lovely,
and loving,
and I really wanna kiss you.
Is that too straight forward?
Is this too fast?
I think I just made a mistake.

You were so...
Happy.
That’s the word.
Happy with her.
Joyful and pure.
She was really nice.
Sweet, not sadistic.
You two were the perfect pair.
But now you’re apart,
On two sides of a cell.
It was barely a few months.
Was anything even there?
I’m sure she meant I love you.
Only now...
she doesn’t.
Little kisses here and there.
Kisses you two shared.
Maybe she did love you,
It was excitement she lacked.
But it’ll be okay, my dear.
I always have your back.

Zip my mouth
Lock the chain
Keep me from staying sane
Zip me up,
Just like that
My mouth is shut
Fast as the drop of a hat.