will the universe ever spin just the right amount to align our stars in the same constellation?

i want to be the sunlight that burns u harder than the smoke down your throat and shines so bright it blinds your eyes.
i want to be the bed that you come to at night and the coffee you pour into your empty cup every morning.
you set the soul of my heart on fire with the most beautiful burn and i never mind the way that it hurts.
if i say my words will you sallow them down?
if my floor falls out from under me will you fall with me through the hole?
i don't know what to do and i don't know where to go.

everybody said time will heal but 9 months have gone by and
i still slit my wrists at 1 am because i need something to numb the pain of my heart.
i lay awake in bed at 3 am because I lost the best thing that's ever happened to me and i will never be good enough to get him back.
i don't wake up when I'm supposed to because being asleep is better than being awake.
i don't eat anymore because my stomach is tied in a knot and there's constantly a lump in the back of my throat.
i don't smile anymore because how could anyone when they are in this much pain.
i am broken and i don't know how to put the pieces back together, or if I will ever be able to.

I didn't know that it would hurt this ******* bad.

an aching pit in my stomach tells me that something has gone wrong.
I have tried to push it away but I knew all along.

you don't love me like you used to
you don't want me like I want you.

I feel you pushing me away, and your heart is leaving mine astray.
I know there is another one, and it hurts my soul to know you're done.

so don't make me hold on when I know you are already gone.

i can feel you falling out of love with me.

months came and months went
I still felt trapped inside this tent.
I couldn't breathe and the walls were caving in on me.
I was drowning in the memories of us, and nobody could see my cuts.
I tried to rise above but I kept sinking down.

so I gave up, and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I couldn't stay, but I need to go away.

I miss being happy
I miss being in love
I miss smiling
I miss waking up and not wishing I hadn't  
and most importantly,
I miss being me

you said you'd be here forever.
you said you'd never let me go.
you said you will always love me.

well it's been a year and you're not here.
it's been a year and you have let me go.
it's been a year and you don't love me.

forever means however long I want to stay in your life.
I'll never let you go means I'll keep you until I find some one better.
always means temporarily
and I love you means nothing.

you would always call me pretty. and even though I liked the sound of it I didn't want to hear it directly. I wanted you tell me that you like the freckle in between my nose because I'm so insecure about it. i wanted you to tell me that you love to hear me sing at the top of my lungs to try and make you laugh. or how you love the way I dance to old music I listened to as a kid. or how I laugh at my own stupid jokes because I think I'm funny. That the way I'm scared of the dark isn't childish, because you are too. I needed you to tell me that you love the sound of my voice, especially when I'm talking about something I love. or that you love listening to me play guitar, just because you know it's my favorite thing. Or the way I cry when someone dies on tv isn't stupid, but cute that I'm so sensitive. that you only tickle me just so you can hear me laugh. or that you like the way my voice cracks just before I'm about to cry. that you love the way I kiss you all over when you're trying to be mad at me. that you think it's funny how I'm grumpy in the mornings. that you think it's beautiful the way I can lose myself in a song. or how you love when it's raining, because that means you'll get to kiss me in it. that you fell in love with the way I would fall asleep on you because it would make you feel at home.
I wanted you tell me that I was so much more than just pretty, that I was your whole world. I didn't want to pretty, I wanted to be so much more.

I was laying in your bed
waiting for you to come jump in
I put on some music, of course my favorite song
wondering what was taking you so long
finally you walk through the door
and I couldn't wait to kiss you more.
you slowly walk over, but instead of laying on your bed
you grabbed my hand instead.
you pulled me in close and we started to dance
which I swear to god, put me in a trance.
Our song came on and you whispered every word in my ear
soft enough for just me to hear.
Your hands on my hips, mine in your hair
that's when I knew, we had something rare.
We danced and danced, you spun me around and dipped me down
We were holding each other so close, as if we would never let go.
In those moments, we were infinite
I wish we had never finished.
When the song was over, you kissed my lips.
Oh god did you kiss my lips. you kissed me like you were suffocating and I was the only air you needed.
you picked me up and layed me on your bed.
you kissed my forehead and made your way to my neck.
You found my ear and whispered slowly "I'm in love with you."

The feelings have become worn out just like the souls of my favorite pair of shoes.
The lust we once had has turned into  an ignored aversion.
This is no longer love we can both clearly see.
Have we been wrong all along or am I in over my head?
The days we have spent, must come to an end.
I don't know how and I don't know why, but within then and now, we lost each other in the in between.

I can still hear your voice in the
back of my head.
  It's a sweet melody that I will always dread.
  I can still feel your lips, so soft and sweet.
  I hope I never see the day when those lips again meet mine.
  I can still see your smile, looking as beautiful as ever.
  I hate that smile and want to see it never.
  
I love you and I hate you, I can't make up my mind.
I love the way you made me feel, but I hate the way you left me.
A part of me thinks that you'll come back after some time.
Another part of me knows you'll never return, so please..

just set me free.

Years from now, when we've graduated college, traveled the world, got married, and have kids of our own, if I'm not the one you share your life with, I hope you remember me.

I hope you remember me as your first real love. I hope you remember me as the one who stole your heart.

I hope you remember the nights we had. Whether it be driving around town, going to parties, hanging out at friends houses, hanging out in the barn, making out in your car, or just watching netflix and cuddling together.

I hope you remember all the things we said to each other. "I love you, I want to be with you forever, just one more kiss, I miss you, you're crazy, stay a little longer, I can't wait to see you."

I hope you remember when we would skip school to be together, when I had to hide in your closet because your mom came home, when we would listen to your music for hours, when I would make you sing to me because I love the sound of your voice, or when we would talk on the phone until the early hours of morning.

If there ever comes a day when you stop loving me, hold on to these memories. I pray to god you don't forget about me, but if you do, maybe when your favorite song comes on, or when you visit this old beat up town, you'll think of me.

He's sweet in his own way. He's not the romantic kind that will buy you flowers or say I love you but I'm ok with that. He's different. And I love it.

I love how he buys me mcdonalds instead of flowers.

I love how we say I hate you to each other knowing it means I love you.

I love how he says my cheeks are chubby instead of saying you're beautiful

I love how he tries to talk in a bad accent just to **** me off

I love how he always laughs at his jokes but never at mine

I love how he teaches me to play xbox instead of kissing me in the rain

I love how he won't take pictures with me and always says he has to fix his hair

I love the way he tries to be romantic but completely fails.

I love the way he loves me.

Your eyes
Your smile
Your lips
Your face
Your taste in music
Your hands when they're holding                 mine
The way you kiss my forehead
That you always make me laugh
When you whisper "I love you" just for me to hear
The way you make me feel so loved
How you always tell me I look pretty
How you get jealous over little things; it shows that you care
The way you look at me
The way you kiss me

I just love everything you do for me.
I just love you. I want to be your best friend, I want to know everything about you, I want to spend forever with you. You have stolen my heart and I don't ever want to get it back.

Ten years from now, when eveyone has left me, I hope you're still by my side.

Ten years from now, when these years are just a memory, I hope you won't be faded with them.

Ten years from now, when I look back on my highschool years, I hope you'll be looking back with me.

Ten years from now, when our friends have moved away, I hope you'll be here to stay.

Ten years from now, when I wonder what happened to this small town, I hope you wonder with me.

Ten years from now, when we are all at the reunion, I hope I won't look at you from a distance thinking where it all went wrong.

Ten years from now, when I have my kids, I hope you're the one they call daddy.

With eyes deeper than the sea
I love the way you look at me
You have stole my heart
And locked away the key
We're on opposite sides of the country
And I hope you're still thinking of me
The way your dimple shows when you smile
Makes the long distance worth the while
Your hand fits in mine like Cinderella's glass slipper
And I can't wait to hear the "I love you" whisper
So, Darlin come home, I've been waiting for you much too long.

You're my desire, you're my fire.
I crave you all the time, you're always on my mind.

You're my desire, you lift me higher.
I want you everyday, so I'm begging you to stay.

You're my desire, you're in my every fiber.
With one kiss, I'm in pure bliss

You're my desire, that will always be the same. You run through all my veins

You're my desire, in case you didn't know. Now kiss me and show me you love me so.

When you kiss me I feel it.
When you touch me I feel it.
When you look at me I feel it.
When you talk to me I feel it.
When you lay beside me I feel it.
It starts in my heart and spreads through my veins, like poison.
Except this poison is good, I need this poison. It makes me feel happy, it makes me want to be with you 24/7.
Is this what they call love?
Love. I feel it when I'm with you, and I hope it never goes away.

I wish the words pretty and ugly were never invented.

Because then we would know what true beauty is.

Not based upon appearance, but based upon the greatness of ones soul

We wouldn't say 'she's so pretty' or 'wow she is ugly.' because we wouldn't know what that was

We would only know the beauty people hold within

I guess I'll lay on the floor in your clothes, listen to your favorite music and pretend you're here with me.

Also I'll watch the videos of you singing just so I can hear your stupid voice and listen to that amazing laugh.

I'll look at pictures to remind me of how good it once was, and how happy we once were.


I'm broken without you but you don't care. you have moved on, while I have just stayed here.

If I told you that I loved you
   would you say you feel the same?
If I told you that I miss you
    would it make you want to stay?
If I kissed your lips
     would you leave me there astray?
If I held your hand
     would you pull away?
If I asked you to be with me
      would you say forever & always

You're gone away and there's a hole in my heart. Where there's supposed to be light it's just dark.
My hand doesn't have anything to hold, but it used to be your hands mold.

You're gone away and the pain won't stop, I think of you and my heart will drop.
There's a empty silence at night, where you should be talking so bright.

You're gone away and I miss you like hell, but I hope you're doing so well.
I lay awake in bed and think that this is where you used to lay your head.

You're gone away and nothing will change, but Darlin I hope you know I still feel the same.

I was standing on the edge of a cliff. Something below called for me.
I took a look down to see, and fell off the edge.

Farther and farther I fell, with every drop was a new discovery.

I first discovered the beautiful night sky with every star shining bright; within a pair of eyes

I fell a little farther

I discovered an angelic voice that makes my heart melt every time it speaks

A little father

I discovered a smile that makes all the angels in heaven sing a melody

A little farther

I discovered lips of scarlet wine that give me flames when I kiss them

I kept falling

I discovered hands that fit mine like Cinderella's glass slipper

Still falling

I discovered muscular arms that wrap around me, making me feel loved and at home

Falling farther

I discovered a smell, something so powerful and beautiful I can't ever get enough

I'm still falling, deeper and deeper; more and more in love with you each day.

I'm still falling, please don't catch me.