It may look like I'm silent
But don't let it fool you
I'm holding back the will
To say that I love you

there was a moment in time
when death sat beside me on a park bench
and he had rested his hand on the gap between us

i,

too,

rested my hand there
and brushed my fingers against his

and for a chaste moment
i savoured the warmth of his skin
and intertwined my hand with his

but he stood up

and left

and maybe he knew,

it was for the better.

You hurt me
But not as much  
As I hurt you

I've gone to show,
The kingdom's golden throne,
What their intentions mean to me,
And how I wanna believe.

Yet, still I stand here, alright but alone in spirit,
I'm trying to find salvation inside this flowing heart of mine,
Changing it's tune with every turn of events,
If you really mean anything to me, you'd always be changing.

I have never traveled so far for you,
Though I've shot you all three times,
I promise that I just might come around,
In time...

I won't hold myself down,
By the natures of science laws,
Or maybe I will,
It depends on my mood for the day,
I'm just feeling the need to apologize.

Yet, still I stand here, alright but alone in spirit,
I'm trying to find salvation inside this flowing heart of mine,
Changing it's tune with every turn of events,
If you really mean anything to me, you'd always be changing.

This is why I don't
share my opinions-
They won't listen.
They think I'm strange.
They think that they're always right.
They make me feel guilty
even though I didn't do anything wrong.
But still,
I won't stop.

Today
I wore black
Because
Event hough
I am still breathing
I am no longer
Alive

-jt