I'm falling out of
I'm trying to find beauty
in my reflection

seems so hard these days
want to love myself again
my one true love

feeling
super super super
Sᵤᵢcᵢdₐl

don't tell my friends
or my family

It's getting too hot in this clown suit

give me a bottle of sunshine
I'm overdosing

no one needs to care for me
don't get mad

we can be friends
I won't spill my secrets

I'm feeling
super super super
▌│█║s̶u̶i̶c̶i̶d̶a̶l̶ █│▌

can I take off the mask
I can't look ahead

nose bleeding
I love taking a leap
a shot of hope

everything
in my life
is a metaphor

who wrote this sad story
where's my sad ending


ᵒᵘᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵃⁿ ᵃᵈᵛᵉⁿᵗᵘʳᵉ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵈⁱᵉ ˡᵃᵗᵉʳ

ᵇʳᵒᵏᵉⁿ ˢᶜʳᵉᵉⁿ
ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵘⁿ ⁱˢ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒᵖᵖᵒˢⁱᵗᵉ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵉ
ˢʰᵉ'ˢ ᵇᵉⁱⁿᵍ ᵐᵉᵃⁿ
ˢˡᵉᵉᵖⁱⁿᵍ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒᵘᶜʰ
ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ⁱˢ ᵃʳᵒᵘⁿᵈ
ˡᵒⁿᵉˡʸ ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳⁿᵒᵒⁿˢ
ᵃ ᵇʳᵃᵛᵉ ᶠʳⁱᵉⁿᵈ
ˡⁱᵉˢ
ⁱᵗ'ˢ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉ ˡⁱᵉˢ

ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ʷᵃˢⁿ'ᵗ ᵃⁿʸ
ˡᵃᵘᵍʰⁱⁿᵍ
ᵇᵒⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ
ˡᵒᵛⁱⁿᵍ

ᵈᵃʳᵏ ᵇⁱʳᵗʰᵈᵃʸ
ʷᵉᵉᵏˢ ᵒᶠ ʷⁱˢʰⁱⁿᵍ
ᶠᵒʳ ᵈᵉᵃᵗʰ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᵗᵒ ᵃⁿ ᵉⁿᵈ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ˡᵉᵃᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵉᵈʳᵒᵒᵐ ⁿᵒʷ

I'm hurting
my pain is loud

ⁱ ᵐⁱˢˢ ʸᵒᵘ
ⁱ ᵐⁱˢˢ ʸᵒᵘ
ᵗᵒᵒ

ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ˡᵉᵃʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵃⁿʸᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁿᵉʷ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ
ˡᵒᵒᵏ
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵉᵉ

ⁱᵗ'ˢ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ
ʷⁱᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ
ʸᵒᵘ

ʸᵒᵘ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ᵃⁿ ᵉᵐᵖᵗʸ
ᵖʳᵉˢᵉⁿᶜᵉ

ᵗᵉᵃᶜʰ ᵐᵉ ʰᵒʷ ᵗᵒ ᵈʳᵃʷ
ᴵ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ˡᵉᵃʳⁿᵉᵈ

ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ᶠⁱⁿⁱˢʰ
ᵗʰᵉ ʸᵉᵃʳ ʷⁱᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘ

ʷⁱˡˡ ᴵ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵗ
ᵗⁱˡˡ ˢᵖʳⁱⁿᵍ

ʷⁱˡˡ ᴵ ˢᵉᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗʳᵉᵉ ᵇˡᵒᵒᵐ

I only look forward to seeing the man on the moon

Greet your mother
mother of lies
ruler of the world

I the evil one
deceive me
there's no noise
I'm wearing white
I camouflage myself
among saints

I've fed myself poison  
my sisters and brothers
don't follow me

I've been distant
I'm the cause
the problem
I'm the wicked one

feeling
like a star
full of sin

my blood reeks
of lies

love me
my angel of light

Remember when I cut my hands
and wrists
and you told the world
behind my back


I'll remember
when you smoked
did drugs
skipped class
messaged a stranger back

Tell the world
Behind your back

You stabbed me
caught by surprise

I cleaned the knife
ready to get you back

I'm not all about revenge
this is only what you deserve

I need help
You need help

We're never going to help ourselves

Better tell someone
it only hurts more
this way

sacrifices
let's pray
you can't call an angel
like you summon a demon
choose your side wisely
there's always a bargain
he likes gold coins
broken souls

did you ever believe
you had a guardian angel?

They wouldn't care for such a filthy being

It's mean
how
emerald leaves turn into gold


today answers will be whispered
inside a ring of fire

Fᴀʟʟɪɴɢ
Fᴀʟʟ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ
Fᴇᴇʟ ʟᴏsᴛ ʟɪfᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜɪɴ ᴍᴇ

ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴏʀʀʏ
ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴛʀᴇss

ʟᴏsᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀᴅ

ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴏff ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇʏᴇsꜱ
ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇᴀʀsꜱ

ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟ

ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟ

ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ
ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ
ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ

ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ ʜᴜɢsꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱsʟᴇᴇᴘ
ᴋɪllᴇd ᴍᴇ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴍᴏʀɴɪɴɢ

ｐａｒａｄｉｓｅ

ｈｅｒｅ Ｉ ｃａｎｎｏｔ ｃｒｙ

Ｉ ｃａｎ ｈｅａｒ ｙｏｕ
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Ｉ ｃａｎ＇ｔ ｈｅａｒ ｍｙｓｅｌｆ

ｔｈｅｒｅ ａｒｅ ｎｏ ｆｌａｗｓ
ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴄᴏᴅᴇ

I still wonder of orion's belt
I still wish to see the moon
I still love parts of life

I may never live the best version of myself

I still want to try

memory lane
hearing the cure
while we drive away
friday
I'm so in love
the way the wind
blows through your hair
I want to live this day again
down the road
let's go home
where we wear our crowns
a day without a frown
never do I look down

there's no satisfaction
I've got so and so distractions
memory lane
such a happy time
when we had our house
in the middle of our street

recently the daylight
lately the sunlight has a
feeling of autumn

plant some flowers
on my neck
watch them die
and make more again

Water me down
watch me grow
and blossom

Tear off my petals
pick at the thorns

Caress my leaves
trace the craved lines
into my skin

build me up strong
tear me back down
I was pulled from the ground
only loved for my beauty and liveliness

When I begin to wither
when I begin to wilt
my roots are rotting
I'm yellow with death
pull me apart from the weeds

I dream of pretty bones
and comfy coffins

I rest in peace unloved
killed by roses

You want a little star
you want me to disappear

I never figured you out

What is it that you love

Never wake up late
goes to work

Do you dream

You want a flower
to make a fire

I let you pick me every time

Do you believe in love
When did your heart die

Were you ever happy

I don't want to be disrespectful

I think you're the devil

drinking
water
tea
milk
liquor

lips dry
fingernails
bad conditions
skin is rotting

where do I find such desire
to take care of myself

to love me

skin
on fire

I can't listen
I can hear nothing

windows rattling

I'm afraid one speck of skin
torn off
will tear me apart