I S A A C

I S A A C Oct 2023

saddle on the chestnut steed
do not get flustered over childhood teeth
what matters is what you see
my body stuck in rooms where i was being used
socket, to extract for their own use
i grow, i change, still maimed roots
the light not shed
however, the tears are true

#gay #gaylove #growth #moving #motion

I S A A C Oct 2023

Excluded kid

coals of the days
warm summer paved
deprived still we try
to go our own way

flowers in the trash
wilted and rash
deprived still we try
to let the car crash

ego a mess
cannot make amends
making me feel like the excluded kid

crash rash trash bash

I S A A C Oct 2023

Gay

i still paint with the shades of you
aquamarine to midnight blue
i still taint myself to get close to you
confident to unsure, untrue

lock my lips, seal my secret
sketching my emotions in my notebook margins
far then, far now, my head i bow down
a tear slips from my face, splashing disgrace
scarred then, scarred now, my tears stream down

#gay #gaylove #love

I S A A C Sep 2023

Changing hues

took 3 years for our orbit to weave
such serendipity then you quickly leave
took too long me for to finally see
such negligence, green to brown leaves

took every ounce of me to not bottle it away
such strength it took to continue the day
took too long for me to finally be ok
dangerous, nefarious, warped awareness
welcome back to the grey

#gaylove #introspection #strength #warped

I S A A C Sep 2023

Burn my Ego

You did it again
I forgave and repented
But after you did it again
I am feeling resentment
you do not care, hands in my hair
you never share your words, i care
i care to listen
i care to hear
i care to know all your fears
i care and i hate it
i care, i think its fated
do i stay while you run me over or get out of your way?
do i stay in the flames another day?
burn my ego?
burn any grace

#burn #ego

I S A A C Sep 2023

Commonplace

potions made under new moons
drink my thoughts at noon
sit with sadness in the blue lagoon
purify myself with a joint or two
****** the volleyball and scream a few
spike it, set it, pray for a breakthrough
bike to work, work to bike
fight the urge to be petty and spite
spike it, fight it, today is a breakthrough
peace is a breath away
death is commonplace
deep breaths today
stress is commonplace

#commonplace #urge #petty #spite #volleyball

I S A A C Aug 2023

eternal monsoon

kick rocks, use my pedals to find peace
pluck them petals and repeat
my routine engraved, my days are grey
my actions are too discreet
i crave the sunlight but worry of burns
i summon the rain but fear for the worst
floods, hurricanes, eternal monsoon
drought, famine, no more breaking news

#depression #drought #famine #hurricane #flood #monsoon