So.

You're doing
great.

That's great
That's great
That's great.

Day 2

Isn't this cute

Halloween in June

This year
I'm

A mess.

And I just wanna rip my ******* heart out.
The loss of someone who was never mine.

Take my mind I don't wanna think about
All the times you made me feel just so
MOTHER ******* FINE.

And here's my eyes. I don't need em'.
When I close them all I see are ghosts of you.

Take these hands, I can't stand to feel them
Because it seems they've memorized the way you move.

Here's some stupid ******* ears. Do you want them?
Cuz I only hear that song you used to play.

And take my feet, I never use them,
Since that day they ran
Begging you to stay.

And I can't sleep
Soundly
I can't rest.
I can't handle all the great things that I
ruined I *******

MESSED

UP

EVERYTHING.

But go,
Just like hang out with your friends and get smoothies or some ****. And one day I'll see you walking and you'll catch me in your eye and your stupid friend, you know the one I'm talking about, that  one I hate? Yeah her. Well she'll say something ******* useless like "God isn't that girl the one that was like, obsessed with you or something lololsdlfkakdsjfLASDK".

And then you'll be all
"Hmm. hmm hmm hmm hm hm. Yeah. **** she's crazy."

Then I'll die.

Silence
has a way of

Announcing
Itself

so
incredibly
                    loudly

Panicked
Inhale
Thinking
Inhale
Eyes wide
Inhale
Sinking
Inhale

I can't seem to get a
Breath out
Lately.

It's not uncommon for me to have
Anxiety
With Zoloft on the ready
Who's to know.

My dreams blend
To reality
Can't make out
My fatality
Was it real-Am I dead-Just a dream

I can't seem
To get a breath out
Inhale
Inhale
Out