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Oct 2 · 47
Every night
moon child Oct 2
Drives home from work
2:30 AM
Thoughts of chocolate
And police cars
And rest
I work at a bar and each night when I leave a crave these chocolate rice crispy bars, mushroom pizza, and sleep.
May 25 · 244
Before sleep comes
moon child May 25
It seems
These days
I fill my time
With as much
M I N D L E S S N E S S
As I
Possibly
Can
May 25 · 120
Life gets better/worse
moon child May 25
Remeber
When we were younger
And the only thing on our mind
Was getting enough time
In a day
Mar 9 · 144
No not
moon child Mar 9
Identifiably
Not who you say I am
Feb 26 · 608
Glow stick
moon child Feb 26
"I am
    Broken."

   "Darling,
   That's how you
   Shine."
Feb 22 · 165
Rest
moon child Feb 22
You couldn't possibly
See yourself
The way that
I do.

Because
If you did
You would
Never
Sleep.
moon child Feb 21
I love you so much
that even drunk
I love you more
than I have ever
loved
before.
Feb 21 · 307
Keep me?
moon child Feb 21
Is this
Compatibility
Or are you just
Watching out for me?
Feb 14 · 262
You. Too much.
moon child Feb 14
You
Talk
Sing
Cry
Sleep
Hide
Leave
Run

Too much.
Jan 6 · 803
You can fly. I cannot.
moon child Jan 6
I am not
doing so well
...
Little bird.
moon child Nov 2019
I'm feelin' a whole new triple "R".
Elementary gave me
Reading
wRiting
and
aRithmetic

Life gave me
Relief
Reason
and
Respect

I
Am Not
Ashamed

Of
Failure :)
Nov 2019 · 241
Why is it funny?
moon child Nov 2019
You ever reach a
PERSONAL BEST
While simultaneously creating a
BUSINESS WORST.

Hah
Sep 2019 · 391
Cant we do this
moon child Sep 2019
Baby
I just wanna
love you
won't you
won't you
Let me
Sep 2019 · 922
soul
moon child Sep 2019
You pull away
As if to say
You'd rather leave
Then make me stay.
Sep 2019 · 130
again?
moon child Sep 2019
we
stayed up
till
four
said
you
don't
love me
anymore
Aug 2019 · 159
Can I hear me?
moon child Aug 2019
Getting out and away from anxiety is
so
empty.

House that I built
Built around myself
Forgot to
Put in
An accessible
Door.

Alcohol a big stick to bang on the walls
Medication a blanket to keep me warm
Cigarettes so I'm not so lonely
And pain
To remind myself I'm still alive in here.
Jul 2019 · 133
Remember?
moon child Jul 2019
There is a
Secret
That shares my every
Emotion.

Starting from the
Decolletage,
It peers 'round every
Forced smile
And
Kind word.

Vermillion
Is a cruel mistress
That climbs my neck
And clings to my *******.

Bright
Red
Sirens.

You can not hide from her.
The more you try
The further she creeps
Up
My
Neck.
I don't recall ever writing this
Jul 2019 · 395
Hello?
moon child Jul 2019
Another year
Still here

Once upon a time there was
A young girl who dreamed
That she would
Ride
Around
The world.

I haven't done it.
But for an extra charge
I could
Call
Someone
In China.
Jun 2019 · 180
Come back soon
moon child Jun 2019
Seeing you smile
Your intake of fresh air
Side eye and
Tucked away laughs.

I miss having your light near mine.
Jun 2019 · 299
Leave
moon child Jun 2019
She parted her lips,
He parted ways.
Jun 2019 · 103
Simply
moon child Jun 2019
Just
A body
A chore
A problem
A violin

For
A knife
To play upon.
Jun 2019 · 1.3k
Not enough
moon child Jun 2019
I'm
Trying
My
Best.

Crying
In
My
Car
But
Doing
It
Well.
moon child Jun 2019
I feel a bit like a failure.
I feel a bit of a fraud.

I can't seem to keep up the most important of things,
But I can hold on to distrust for so so long.

I can't seem to please myself,
So I push that on to anyone who's willing to listen.

I don't believe that I deserve long lasting things,
So I cut them off before they find me.

Anything that's too good
Is too good for me.
And I'm
No good
For anything.

I feel a bit like a failure.
I feel a bit of a fraud.
I feel as though
I'm not enough
I'm too much
I'm nothing.
I'm everything.
I'm a mess.
I feel that I'm stunted,
Although it's only by myself
So I'll stay
By myself.

A failure.
A fraud.
I'll stay
By
myself.
A disappointment to my mind.
May 2019 · 275
R to C to R
moon child May 2019
And
It's over.

One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight

Months.

Those plans
We made,
You'll keep them.

I'll
Make some
Anew.
Apr 2019 · 281
Love in the landscape
moon child Apr 2019
Floral
Flighty
Frightened
Fauna
Mar 2019 · 1.4k
Until we part.
moon child Mar 2019
Falling in love
When you have an agenda
Is so
Painful
Mar 2019 · 198
Don't forget.
moon child Mar 2019
I need to remember
For the sake of my heart
That I
Am temp-
Orary.
Mar 2019 · 1.3k
Desperation.
moon child Mar 2019
I don't want to spend my youth
Without
In order to spend my future
With

I am willing to throw my tomorrow
Into the wind
As payment for a better
Today

I will risk what lies ahead
To ensure peace where I am
Right
Now

The future is not guaranteed.
The future is not a given right.
The future is not fair.

Today is sure.
Today is a gift.
Today is what I wake up to every morning.

So I will not stop living
For the future.
I will live on
For today.
Mar 2019 · 316
Life itself
moon child Mar 2019
Life is beginning
To feel like a game of
Pretend.

I am no longer
In control of
The imagining.
Mar 2019 · 124
You're a whore.
moon child Mar 2019
I have become
/too much/

I don't know why this came
As a shock to me

Pushing myself
In the days past
In the ways I have
It should not
Have shaken me
So forcefully
In the way it did.
Feb 2019 · 513
Touch
moon child Feb 2019
Searching for contact
In each set of eyes
I meet
Feb 2019 · 294
Love my boy
moon child Feb 2019
Baby
I love you
In bits
And
Pieces
Feb 2019 · 135
Crabass
moon child Feb 2019
In
A
Heckin'
MOOD
Jan 2019 · 319
She does
moon child Jan 2019
Only the finest of artwork on my walls
Mark Rothko
Gustav Klimt
And countless photos of you
Jan 2019 · 293
I love you
moon child Jan 2019
The words
Cling to my lips

They hang tightly
To my fingertips

They pull close
On my hips
moon child Jan 2019
I love you
I love you
I love you

So light
As the words
Spill from my fingertips

The phrase plays
Again and again
In my mind

A sonnet I have
Concocted
Simply waiting
To be sung
Jan 2019 · 186
She's here She's here
moon child Jan 2019
Finding myself again in
Needless laughter
And a coy smile
Jan 2019 · 182
New Year's Resolution
Jan 2019 · 161
Death
moon child Jan 2019
When I die
Bury me in thoughts
of Her
Jan 2019 · 395
Sexual Assult *TW: rape*
moon child Jan 2019
I remember it
In bits and pieces.

Here and there I catch a sense of
Foreboding.
Of something coming.
Of knowing that
No matter how much I try
No matter how far I go in life,
This will never leave me.

I have been sexually assaulted.
By two different people
In my life.

I was
Nineteen
When I started dating him.

Nineteen and my
First
Boyfriend.

He has red hair and a
Jaded past.
A bad boy with a
Gap-toothed smile.

I was taught
To save myself.
To not have *** with a man
Until I was married.

He showed me
That there is a lot two can get away with
Before marriage.

I thought he loved me.
He told me so just two short weeks into our relationship.

I believed him
Because I had never done this before.

I thought
he would know, wouldn't he?
I suppose
"I love you too."

From there I found that
Love
Had a funny way of
Proving itself.

It was Easter or Christmas
Or some Christian holiday
When he pulled a blanket over us and
Stuck his hand
Down my pants.

His uncle was in the room.
Engaged in a Vikings football game.
His mom and
Sister and
Aunt and
Cousins
Were making cookies
In the kitchen.

I remember the details of the space
I was violated
In a desperate attempt
To forget
The act.

This happened often.
And openly.
In the backseat of his parents car
As they drove us to their home.

In his sister's retired bedroom as I awoke to him
On top of me.
I thought of the jewelry on her old dresser.
How she chose the ones she cared for
And left the rest behind to be
Forgotten.

Years passed with the memory staying in my mind as though it were a song I chose to memorize.

I met her in a bar.
I had known her.
We had flirted.
She stole kisses all night and proudly proclaimed that
I was "here with her!".

I felt safe.
I knew the crowd.
I took care
Of myself.

After threats of renting a hotel for us
I drove her home.
We were laughing.

She lived with her parents.
In the basement.

The upstairs lights promptly shut off
As she drunkenly stepped inside.

She led me to the basement and I turned as the door slammed shut.
Locking her cat outside.
Begging to come in.

My neck
Hurt for weeks.
That's what happens,
I suppose,
When you're caught by the back of your hair and
Tossed
Across a bed.

My head whipped over the side of the sheets and retracted
As she slapped me across the face.

"I like it rough"
She chimed.
I did not.

Casual pleading
Will only get you so far
When you beg
To be let out of this room.
I envied the cat.

I couldn't stop it so I
Took care
Of myself.

Laying empty,
Broken,
And dry
On her sheets
I dreamed I would be allowed
To go home.

Saliva
Can be a lubricant.
Did you know?
Even if it is ripped from your own
Throat.

******* penetrated my lips,
And then,
So much more.

As I staggered out she tossed words
Like
"****"
"Hot"
And
"I'll text to tomorrow"
At my body.

My body
Does not always feel
Like a safe place.

My body
Bruises and
Bleeds and
Weeps.

My body
Shakes
For weeks.

But I
Am not
My body.

And I
Will take care
Of myself.
Jan 2019 · 121
Do somebody.
moon child Jan 2019
Somebody else is
Holding you close now.
Falling asleep
To the sound of your voice now.

Do you dance in the rain?
Slowly and sweetly through tears.
Do you kiss on the train?
The hushed comments of jealous strangers never reaching your ears.

Do they laugh with you?
Weep with you?
Get drunk
Party and
Sleep with you?

Are they loving you in the way
I could not seem to muster?

Do you love them
Yet?
Jan 2019 · 188
Today
moon child Jan 2019
Sometimes I am overcome by
A feeling.

Unsure of what it
Is
Or how to
Process it,
I lie
In bed
All day.
Dec 2018 · 137
Going again
moon child Dec 2018
Never
Less
Could
Be
Dec 2018 · 351
Breathe deeply
moon child Dec 2018
Mother doesn't want a frantic beauty
Dec 2018 · 220
Sweeet
moon child Dec 2018
So I've been thinking.
I love you.
Dec 2018 · 109
No.
moon child Dec 2018
No.
Okay but you all really expect me to go to school from the age of six all the way to 23 and then just jump into a full time job like hello?
I'm gunna eat warm cookies while drunk instead
Dec 2018 · 131
Mitochondria
moon child Dec 2018
You've got me feeling
Some sort of
Something.
Dec 2018 · 210
Not so great
moon child Dec 2018
Pain spills from the
Cracks in my skin
As I
"Say cheese for the camera!"
Dec 2018 · 142
A letter. To you.
moon child Dec 2018
I haven't felt
The way that I feel about you
In awhile

It makes me happy
And scared
And it fills me with
Hope
And
Eagerness.

And I love it.

So thank you
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