The moon is full
Shining behind mountains tall
Cold wind sends shiver down my spine
I know, I know
I don't have much time.

Underworld's Grim knocks
on my heart, not the door
Be still, my heart
Be still, don't want more.

Here, the inevitable comes
Puts a sickle on my throat
I have lived. I have lived.
I am content. I am ready.
Take me now while I am happy.

Now, time will stood still
Like the sole tree on the hill
Bid goodbye, bid goodbye
For the time to die is nigh.

I want it all to ******* end.

There. I've said it.

Agonizing.
Pretending.
Fixing.
Shaking.
Breathing.

I want it all to come to an eternal halt.

Then maybe, just maybe
They'd stop ignoring the obvious
Confront the demons that haunt us
Learn to live with deep wounds
And turn scars into badges.

And I ran under the rain
Hoping to wash away all the pain
Tears weren't enough to cleanse the vain,
To erase the memories of bane.

I ran, skipped, turned
Cooling the soul with third degree burns
Gentle drops from heaven calmed my nerves
Temporarily, agony was shunned.

I wanna shower in the rain.

But I know I shouldn't
For sickness awaits at the end remain.

Heavy downpour will be too much on my weak shoulders
Cold drops will further chill my broken soul.

But even so...
I wanna shower in the rain.

For a chance to get high with temporary bliss
For a moment of shutting all noise but of the rhythm of the heart.

I wanna shower in the rain.
I wanna shower with you in the rain.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

Remind me again that mornings
bring new hope
that basking in the light won't burn me.

Remind me again that mornings
are exciting
that there is an unexpected surprise ahead.

Remind me again that mornings
reveal a daily life purpose
that each passing day adds meaning to my insignificant existence.

Remind me again that mornings
are for rising up
that it is neither for bidding 'goodnight' or 'sweet dreams'.

Remind me again that mornings
can be beautiful
Even if I won't find myself waking in your arms anymore.