You are my favorite drug
Cigarettes, *****, and ***
Can't even begin to create
The high your presence delivers

This blade controls me
This blade enters my skin without stuttering
This blade knows it's home within me
This blade hasn't yet cut too deep but has taken my life, you see
This blade is my life now
This blade slices through my skin like a hot spoon through butter
This blade draws art on my wrists and writes stories on my thighs
This blade will one day end my total existence
This blade is my addiction, you see
This blade has become my infatuation
This blade is wrecking me
This blade is scarring my skin with shiny white lines
This blade makes me joyous
This blade forces me to cut my activities short so it can cut my skin
This blade is my bestfriend, because when
This blade allows the red to run free of my flesh, I get giddy with excitement
This blade comforts me
This blade will be here 'till the end...

You are my sun, 
My moon,
And all my stars
You are the air I breathe,
The light I need to see,
And all my hopes and dreams

Oh I love you
I don't just mean like I'm glad you're alive,
I mean without you, I would be bare
I mean that you are what puts the smile on my face even on my darkest days
I mean that right when I wake up, all I want is to see your smiling face
I mean that if anyone ever hurts you, I will destroy them
I mean you make my heart beat fast with every word you say
I mean that you mean more to me than I mean to myself
I mean that all I care about is your happiness and your health
I mean that I will never let you go, even if you refuse my presence
I mean that I will be here for you whenever you need me
I mean that there isn't a thing in the world I wouldn't do for you
Oh I just love you

my body is still in existence
yet i am dead
i can't feel the pain
but i can see all the red