He looked happy
I asked how he was
"I'm wonderful"
Is what he said
I looked at him and smiled
he smiled back

He looked depressed
I asked what was wrong
"I'm tired"
Is what he said
I looked at him and smiled
He didn't smile back

He looked like he'd been crying
I asked why
"I can't take it"
Is what he said
I looked at him and hugged him
He hugged me back and thanked me

He looked cold
I asked why he had left me
He stayed silent
And said nothing
I looked at him and cried
He stayed still

I couldn't see him
I didn't ask why, I knew
I couldn't hear him
He didn't say anything
I wanted to hold him
But they lowered him into the ground

A state of comastose
As love in repose
Your life is a masquerade
But nobody knows

The happiness feels
Like a gun to the head
A funeral march
For the living dead

The light has gone out
As feelings slowly fade
Beginning to feel numb
Day after day

The tears start to gather
In your lonely eyes
Your heart is forever broken
But it's no surprise

Everytime it's all the same
You've never understood why
People always end up leaving you
Broken and alone to die

You always did your best
To always make it work
No matter how hard you try
You always end up hurt

You don't know why you attempt
To find love anymore
You always end up beaten down
Bleeding on the floor

It's only human nature
To want to find love again
But you'll never find anyone
You'll love as much as him

A straight jacket feeling holds me close to my pain
This feigning joy captures no gain
Like a Shakespearean tale of love for naught
This game called life is harder than I thought
Some claim to love me, others claim to care
No matter what they say, I don't feel it's there
The one and only person keeping me here
Is honestly my life and I hold her very dear
She sees past the scars and fights away my fears
She there through my laughter, but more so through my tears
I love her more than anything and I owe her my life
She's my everything and more, my vampire wife.

Harlequin dreams
Tangled in fears
A scarlet disease
Grown over the years

Feelings of sadness
Turning to hate
It's all a mess
For a worse fate

Poisonous words
That burn like hell
All tell a story
Only he can tell

Closing your eyes
Hiding your face
Trying to think
Of a different place

Tears fall hard
Harder than you
You sit and contemplate
The things he will do

He puts you in the ground
He covers your head
Little did he know
You were already dead

The silence feels so good
It tells no lies
The water covers your head
Don't open your eyes
Liquid flows in
As pain flows out
You'll be gone in seconds
Without a single doubt
The pressure on your lungs
Is almost too much to bear
Ten more seconds
You're almost there
Your mind goes blank
Your world goes black
You've done it
You've finished
There's no turning back
The macabre thoughts
Are all finally gone
You're out of this world, literally
Face it, you're done

The silence always seems so loud
yet never says a word
Your voice I hear is a beautiful sound
yet a screaming, horrible dirge
The things I see are hard to describe
yet easy enough to tell
That all I want is to feel alive
in this world meant for hell.

A gun to the head
A blade to the skin
Life flowing out
Death coming in
Red turns to grey
Grey fades to black
Eyes closing slowly
No turning back
Death was sudden
An unexpected pose
Lain upon the coffin,
A single red rose
Hearts broken to pieces
By loves false facade
Thoughts of yesterday...
Forgive me, my God.