I'm crying for help but silence is what they see
Smiling but the wounds are too deep
Do you see the pain?
Everyone's shoulder... but where's his?
They say he's such a nice kid
Give him an Oscar he earned it
He's putting on a grade A performance
Playing the role but never playing himself
It's a cold world when you're in it by yourself

When I'm on my darkest side
You light up like an angel
On times i wanted to hide
You found me like an eagle

My life was empty
But you fill me up like a form
Whenever i feel needy
To anyone, you can transform

The stranger said "Love it can cry you a river -
Me, I'm a loner cause I can't take the heartache
And sometimes I'm a fighter when I get too much whiskey -
Here have a little whiskey, pretend you don't give a **** -*

I am a loner and
sometimes a fighter,
but there is
not enough
whiskey in the world
to drink you
out of my heart
or  allow me
to pretend
I don't give a ****
or to ignore
the heartache.

I take my pain
like a warrior:
straight up.
  ~mce

We are different. Why not?

But we are so much alike.

An aging monk, I long ago
left the importance of opinions
and the world's judgements behind.

For me, that was difficult.

First, the world beat me
to a ******, barely breathing
husk of a man.  I took many
punches; I struggled up
and learned a new way to live.

You are young and what
had to be beaten out of me
seems to come naturally to you.

Now, I take my chances
and live with the results.

All I ask of you  is a chance.

Whatever happens will happen.

Two souls that kiss
can overcome many differences
because, soul to soul,
they create their own world
outside of time and space.

Maybe not forever, but in
a mortal world, what difference?

Forever is you in my arms,
the still point in life's
hurricane, for as long as
you are content to be there.

I didn't storm your world;
you let me in. I can't win
your heart; you aren't a prize,
you are a person, a woman.

You will choose to offer it
freely or you will not.

Your life, your heart, your choice.

I am here, a man, waiting to see
how the cards get dealt and then
play the hand I am given.

I am hoping to get
the Queen of Hearts.

Here's to good cards and good luck.

  ~mce

These days,
talking to you is like
screaming.
Under water

No matter how loud
I am,
the waters will always drown out
my pleas.
To the ears that need to hear them.

I think I'm cracking under the pressure

there is no color for regret
this fist of hindsight clenched in my stomach
sitting heavy, firm and uneasy

i can't paint over this lingering, wholesome sorrow
splashed in my lamentable eyes

the agony is blind and cannot feel its way out of this dark corridor
the uneasiness is more real than the feeler

repentance is stuck in my teeth and gnaws at my tongue
discomfort catches its fingernails on the chalkboard recesses of the past

regret

regret

the neon open sign flickers and its fumes are toxic

See that demon
She's a hydra
Her faces they multiply

Piercing light
Made of truth
Cuts down her wicked lies

I was caught once
In that succubus' grip
Tell you then life was sad

Happily, I'm freed now
And I know that I will never go back
Yes I know I'll never go back

It was hard times
living that lifestyle
Witness crimes your best friends make
I was lost and lonely
Dosing off my last mistake

You'd find me beaten
And I'd be crying
Over the little bit of milk I spilt

What you don't know
What I won't say
It's something that I would never admit

See that demon
She's a hydra
And I'm in round 3 with her
She's winning, and I'm quitting
But the girl don't know all my tricks
Because I'm fooling
Make a feint move
Then swing those words with all my might

listen (Honey listen to me)
Very closely (This isn't working out)
I'll tell you all that I have learned(we aren't the same people we were)
when they call you (and I've got to go)
To come home (I'll never forget...)
It's valuable if it's what you yearn.(Goodbye)

I'm not an introvert
I just want to be alone