I tasted your love laced lips
and I felt the way you saw me
and fireworks and flutters were
in infinite supply and I saw the universe
and my whole world in your eye,
and then disappear with its blink.
the blink wasn't fast,
But like a slow fade
to sleep that
you try to
fight
until...
*black

You are the bright beautiful light that mezmerizes me
pure, pristine, and pearly white
Every part of me is drawn to you. craves you
As I approach I forget all thoughts, forget all       fears

do I not remember what happened last time I got close?
do I not remember the ZAP? the PAIN!?!
*why do I keep coming back to the light?

I hate that I hate you
and I do ******* hate you
I hate how hate fills the void you left in me
and I do hate how you left
I hate who you are
because its not who you are
I hate how I have so much to say
but nothing to say to you
I hate that I love you
and I do ******* love you

Cry all you want, I have shed my tears
At times, I still scream to the sky, WHY?,
but still no one hears.

You're gone, you're dead, you chose not to stay
You made your bed and there you lay.

My life moves on, slowly, and in no direction
I often sit and stare blankly at my own reflection

Truth is you hurt me, you killed me
At least the part no one can see.

The dark rings around my eyes come as no surprise
Now that my lonliness is realised.

I miss you

I am an addict
Can't live without
When I stop using
I feel down and out

Did try it for a few weeks
Went into total lockdown
But after a while
I started to drown

My palms got sweaty
I started to suffocate
Couldn't breath anymore
And I lost my faith

So then I started using again
I just didn't know what I could do
So I decided to be an addict for life
Because I'm just too **** addicted to you

the color of her lipstick
the color of the alleyway
the color of his knuckles when she showed signs of struggle
the color of the pavement
the color of the ambulance light
the color of her maternity dress
the color of her baby's hair
the color of the roses they set beside her coffin

she saw red--
                        the color of Love.