My arms ache
The space where her
Slim body fell into perfectly
Aches
My arms don't know what
To do
Since they don't hold you.
My fingers long
To touch your sweet face
And move your soft hair
Behind your ears.
My eyes are tired
Of this dismal scene
That is called "this world"
Because they only see you
In pictures-
It isn't enough.
My heart,
Oh my heart
How it aches
So deeply
To know that
Your heart was its.
Two halves
Fit together perfectly
Your neck was made
For my head
Your lips made
For my kiss
Your fingers made
To lace through mine
Oh how I wish
You were mine.
But now
I am left aching.

Stuff your sadness 
Down your throat 
Along with some ***** 
And those pills your friend gave you 
Pull up that smile 
And spread your legs 
Because if you don't 
Then "you're not acting like yourself"
Catch up 
Catch up 
Life was on pause for 
Almost a year and a half 
Get over it 
Get over her 
And get under him

If I end up
Killing myself
Please oh please
Forget me
I went through the trouble
Of killing myself to forget you.
At least return the favor.

I try to make sense of all these
Things I feel
And why I feel them.
I should sit down
And make a list
Of my feelings
And who or what
Or why or when
I felt them.
Because my head is so full
And my heart is so empty
All I need is a
Pen and some paper
To save me from insanity

Yesterday I felt her
Press against me
And her tongue on mine
And her tongue on my neck
I felt her eyes on mine
And her smile
And we were thinking the same thing
"we shouldnt be doing this"
But my body felt alive
With a yes, yes, yes
It felt alive with every kiss
And every look
It even felt alive when I begged her
Not to kiss her tonight.
Now my body is left
With that image of breakthrough
Rolling in my head
Of the way our fingertips got hot
As they pushed against our skin
It's left me more than dead
It's left me *wanting.

I'm trying to move on,
I promise.
But how can I?
When I still wish to wake up
In her arms?
How can I when I want to
Jump on her and kiss her
And yell "wake up wake up!"
And spend the day laughing loudly
And kissing and cuddling.
I cannot move on.
Not when I still miss her so much.

Her fingers pressing against
My hips
Pushing searching
Sweet taste in my mouth
Tongues playing
A game they know all too well
Shirt shoes jeans all off
Just me and her
Our skin hot and our breath
Ragged
But we drink each other in
And smile at our nakedness
The beauty of it all
Still amazes me
And I am in awe
As my fingertips dance across her
Naked shoulder
And waist
To pull her neck close
For a sensual kiss