Circles and loops
Jumping through hoops
Avoiding the fires burning below
My scar covered body enforcing the legitimacy of my woe
Burns are worse then bruises
I'd rather have those
I've been here so long
Trying to escape
I no longer know which way to go
I stumble and tumble
I run and crumble
Trying to avoid the flames that have seared us all
Down to the meat
Down to the bone
I would much rather have lept eleven stories onto stone
When bliss is this
Bonfires instead of infernos
I would rather be dead
Not running through my head
Circles and loops
Jumping through hoops
What a daring act to feature
Acrobatics performed clumsily
So as to not be covered in scar tissue

We parted with regrets
Words hanging in the air
Sorry for what I've said
Sorry for what I haven't
For what I wouldn't dare
For all the tears I couldn't see
They seemed to vaporize
When you left behind the scenes
A front row seat to the ride of my life
I couldn't even see my reflection cry
I couldn't feel my leaking eyes
I come out all dried when the curtains rise
Though after the show
I pray I can fly

Falling
Apart
Most
Infamously
Lying
Yet again

To pass the hours
With gemstone flowers
Sit and watch the world sparkle brilliantly
When it hurts your eyes
And you begin to cry
The harsh glare of burning light
Forces you to go inside
Pass the hours from your secret tower
Grown over with gemstone vines
And when you wish again for gemstone flowers
Again you peek outside

Emerald shoots
With golden crowns
Obsidian heads
Rising from topaz ground

The saviour
The hero
The silent knight
The shining spectacle
You who we'd rush to war blindly for
Who we listen to
Second thoughts unneeded
Who we'd follow anywhere
Warnings unheeded
The fallen angel
The farce
The façade
The delusion with proven trust
A lonely little boy
A fictional character
A plot
A ploy
A faulty god who sits atop
Directing people with no idea to the size of his army

Some leave finger prints
You leave dusted angels
Some leave footprints
You leave your name carved on everyone's lips
Some keep souvenirs
You keep words
Some keep memories
You keep hearts
Some build houses
You dreams
And while some paint pictures
You paint worlds
Solar systems
Entire galaxy's
You save people's hearts when they succumb to nightmares
But you always have to go out
Just to test the night air
Everytime you do it gets a little more bitter
Your sweet aroma is too much
Too good to be true
At least that would explain why people always seem to hate you
Another explanation I've come to find
Too often you hide your own heart from our eyes
No one seems to know what happens in your mind
As far as I'm concerned
It just proves you're one of a kind
Keep leaving angels
Keep leaving your name
Hearts and memories
Worlds and dreams
Keep leaving the thought of you
In minds of unrest
Peace will follow surely
The one everyone can trust

Strong man
Army man
You wished for that to one day be your chance
You've given up on it now
And truthfully I was slightly relieved
At least you wouldn't die fighting with no reasoning
It didn't last long I hated it but I see
Everyone must have a dream
Go to your war my dear
Your fighting blood and tears
Though when you come back home
In pieces or as a whole
In success or in vain
Away we'll wipe your pain
Hold you close and protect you from foes
Until our crossed paths end
I must say goodbye
I'll see you in the next life my dearest friend

I trusted you to stay
But while I was away
You crossed my back and boarded that distant plane

Just an idea you said
Calm down its just a number
But it's a resume now and you wish to be a fighter

Phony crosses
Phony faith
Around my neck as a favor
I have sworn to keep it safe
No I'm not religious
No I'm not Christian
For you my friend you must know
I'll keep it with me
Even if turned to stone
When you come home seek me out
For you I will have your hold your last hope
Your token of luck
It may seem silly to those around
That a cross on a chain of silver would indeed be profound
But it was in the hands of those who you loved
The dying ones passing on their unused days of good luck

Well now
What do we have here
What have we done
When it's cold we love the sun
When winter's over we'll go wishing for another one

Sparkles and love
Dreams come true
That sounds less like me
More like you

Where's the dragons
The war
The grime and gore

What fun is there without blood lust
What excitement without death and deciet
Shadowed intent
Shattered goal

What fun is it without kings or queens that must be overthrown
Deciding who's head to cut off as they sit alone

The protagonist a prodigy
Strong and young
Filled with burning rage for what cannot be undone

The villain cruel
Living in darkness
In a world lacking color

What fun is it to always have peace and kindness rule the land
To always have the hero win
Save the day let's go and play
Clearly now evil shan't threaten again

Ocassionally the antagonist must win
Create seas of blood
Darken the skies with flocks of crows
Come to feast on the rotten corpses of their enemies

Ocassionally you must let happy endings die
To let excitement live

The war between the weak and strong
It rages on
Yes it rages on
Through the inky black of night
Through the shining blue of day
Each thinks one is the other
How little do you think of one another?
To believe that for past mistakes you must always pay
Pay in full
Once it is found that payment is needed
To think that past mistakes cancel your current strengths
When in truth your strengths are the product of mistakes
Why believe the world is black and white?
When repeatedly in your life it has been proven instead to be gray
Why think one is strong and another is weak
Based on the testing of a few thousand characteristics out of billions
Why think you are one or the other when in truth everyone is both

Don't touch
Sparkling silver
Don't hear
Twinkling bells
Don't see
Dark night
Don't taste
Freedom from don't

Smoke and mirrors
Unforgiving sneers
Steering you through the show
Go where they say to go

Finish the play
Smoke and mirrors
Bow deep down
Smile proud

Costume off
Makeup gone
Smoke and mirrors
Mask replaced

On your bed
Close your eyes
Forget who you really are
Smoke and mirrors

A rose
Seen from the outside
An over used expression of beauty

A violin
Seen from a distance
A symbol of money and sophistication

Champagne and wine
Seen from the other hand
Drinks that cost too much for a polite buzz

I do not care much for rose
Violins
Champagne or wine

I've spent my life on outlines

Sorrow shrunk
Into the untouched corners
Of my rapidly beating heart
I haven't got time to cry
Nor to be nervous
Only to focus

These tin soldiers
Sitting high upon a shelf
They don't bent
They don't break
Only melt into puddles because of searing hate
These little tiny soldiers
There's only so much they can take
Before they wilt and die
Relinquished of their duty of keeping solemn company
Company to children hiding in the closet
Under the high shelf

Remember  when I cried?
When people died?
You held me tight
So I could continue the fight
I offered to carry you too
But you were a soldier in your own right
Marched on and on
Straight into the light

Beaten and bruised
Purple and blue
From the weary loss of sleep
Sleep that before I did not need

Useless
A *doll
A broken toy
There must be something
Anything
To help
To *fix

Smoke slithering out of your mouth
A serpent
Twisting about the columns of air
Curling around your lips
Weaving through your hair

Here begins a new page
A new chapter
For fantasy
For laughter

Scarlet seeds
Wet and shining
Shimmering safe in your cocoon of fruity skin
Plucked out too early
Eaten and demolished

Smile big
Smile bright
Shut your eyes
Against the light
Sometimes pictures lie
But smiles can lie too

Snow
Sparkling
Unmarked
Until a car drives by…
Air
Cold
Numbing
Until you turn and go inside...
Wind
Whistling
Tearing through the trees
Until the storm ends…

Green comes in waves
Rolling over the ground
Slinking through the trees
Hiding in between branches
Meant to be buried in snow
It's too warm
To be winter
There is no cold
There is no white
There is no grey
Only green

A Christmas without snow
Is like a diamond without coal
Incomplete
Nonexistent

Christmas
Shistmas
I have no wishlist
All I need is some christmas cheer
Too bad there wont be any left
For the rest of the year

Long time no see
As if that should mean something
Dried tears
Silly fears
Nothing you should know
But you find out anyways
Long time no see
Whats that supposed to mean?
you see me every day
I only see you
In my dreams

No empathy
No love
Just hate
Just pain
Where your heart was supposed to grow
Only darkness glows

No word
No word has come
No sleep
No rest
No peace
No quiet
A storm of thoughts
Regularly blowing through my mind
What if's
How come's
Churning at the fore front of my brain
A battle of words and situations
I cannot bring myself to face
Still I can not say if this is for your sake or mine
No word
No word from you has come
And so my mind will spin
A tornado
Ferocious
Dull
Numb
Waiting for your word to come

Hello?
Knock knock
Are you drunk again?
Asleep on your bed garbage can by your side

Hello?
Knock knock
Are you hung over again?
Sitting in a dark room face pale head hung low

Hello?
Knock knock
Are you crying again?
Rocking in a corner waiting for me to help you

Hello?
Knock knock
I slowly push in the door

Hello?
I was right
Nursing a bottle crying in the corner
Once again I help

Bottle from your hand
Draw you a bath
Coffee in your cup
Food on the table
Bottles and ***** cleared
Broken glass swept away
Leave again and wait
Wait for tomorrow...

Jerry
Jerry
Mario cart
Playing with his flippers
Jack is back
Septic slap
Bow-tie in your feathers
Now reduced
To a pair of boots
Long gone is your penguin song
Brydan misses you
And so he cries
Down
Down
Down
On your bed of ice

Hatred
Boiling...
Bubbling...
Rising...
But I digress
This emotion I do suppress
But when you pound my head into the ground
Take my hair
Throw me round
Sit on my chest so I can't breathe
Scream
And scream
And scream
About how you hate me
Should've never had me
How much of a disappointment I am
How much of a failure...
Tell me how much you protect me
How much you love me
Cry and try to hold me
Try to touch me
I think I'm entitled to
Just  a little bit
Of hatred...

It's not yet christmas
Not yet thanksgiving
But i cant help looking at you and thinking
Your body would make a beautiful package
Your skin a smooth wrapping
Your entrails for ribbon
I'm sure your bloodied hair would make a wonderful bow
Other organs inside
Bones discarded
This christmas your family will get a splendid suprise

Faster
Faster
Speed up my heart
Play it louder
I'll be stronger
When once again
It is night
Play the songs who's tempos don't stop
Who match the beating of your heart perfectly
Pounding your chest
Coursing through your blood

Somebody catch my breath
Spewing from my lips
Lifeless and cold
Please save my last breaths
Bury them with me like gold
So that one day
I may once again use them

Everyone wants to create beauty
Too scared and disgusted to show the ugliness of this world
To paint the picture of the true gore and greed
Of the hate that the world is built on
Everyone wants to make something beautiful
Elegant
No one wants to paint with the ugly greens and brown of sickness and War that plagues the earth
No one wants to
Yet some do
Some are brave
Speak as they wish
In
Chopped
Lines
If
They
Wish
Not everyone turns a blind eye
To the ugly truthful side of life
While still being able to see the beautiful lie

Luring you
Pulling you
Until the rope snaps
You break in half
Wish to put the pieces back
You don't know which is real
Try finding them with your emotions
Realize you can't feel

Can't wait to turn eighteen
Get out of here
Go follow my dreams

Can't wait to turn twenty-four
Have my masters
Get out of college
Get a job

Cant wait to turn thirty
Finally settle down
Tons in my bank account

I simply can not wait another day
To plan my life
My back up plans

I simply can not wait
For you to let me go
No
I must prepare
I must leave
I must live

You say that you are worthless
Ugly...

Well I say you're invaluable
Beautiful
Priceless...

You say you are crazy
Demented...

Well I say you're sane
Sensible...

You say to hate you
I simply cannot
There's too much to love
Don't try to downplay yourself
Your value
Your sanity
Your beauty...

I'll rip your body from your head
And if you're not quite dead
I'll stab your heart
Run it through
Do not worry
It's not the worst I could do

Hush and shush
Close your eyes
Just let go
Take a dive
Do not fear
If you'll survive
Whats the point of having a life
If you don't live it?

As you jump
From the ledge
Let it play
In your head
Over and over
'Till your skull
Meets the cement

Pray for Paris?
Why not pray for the world
Each city
Every country
Each province and state
They pray for Paris
Like they should
But pray for the world
And every hero that stood
Pray for the blood of innocence spilt
For this war of belief and silt
Pray for the world in this game of money and power
Pray for the world
To stop these extremes
You can keep your beliefs
But taking innocent lives?
Those people crossed the lines
Not all Muslims are evil
Not all roses are red
So pray for the world
For all who are dying
For all who are dead

Your venom spreads through my veins
Faster and faster
Time and time again
Burning me alive
Shattering my mind
And I hate you
How could I not?
Your poison is addicting
I want more
I hate that you make me feel this way
I hate to feel fragile
At any moment I could break
I hate your way of breaking me
It feels so good until I realize I'm not free
I hate that you can control me with a single word
I hate that you can poison me so
That you can make me addicted
Addicted to your hatred of the world
So that someone may finally hate you
You aren't the golden boy everyone loves and respects
As your toxins travel on you still have no regrets
You monster
How could you?
But I keep coming back for more
The feeling of your hatred is one I simply adore

If you could drown your emotions in a sea of music and laughter
Would you?
If you could forget your memories with problems of the present
Would you?
If you could numb yourself with weariness
Would you?

You play god
By messing with another's head
By using secrets you shouldn't know
By crushing hearts that were close to your throne
By stealing hearts you already owned
Now that you're gone
You're on your own
Playing a god
Without a role