think to yourself
and just breathe
take something
to make you feel
above the clouds
past the moon,
past the stars

The concert just finished
I had the time of my life
But my body gave out
dehydrated, exhausted
I remember being scared at how pale my hands were
It was midnight
Im inside an ambulance
And my mom was waiting at the hospital
I laid on the bed as if I was dead
I recall my mom telling me that my blood sugar
Was very low— around 60 mg
That moment, I didn’t feel anything
And I liked it
My mind wasn’t jumping from wall to wall
I felt at ease
I was taking a break from myself

cute chuckles
what’s so funny
absolutely nothing
she is nervous, angry
& sad
all she can do is laugh
all she can do is pretend,
act like things are okay

i broke a little bit
as i read your response
worthless, that word
thats what you said
you described yourself
as worthless
“don’t think like that”
“you’re not worthless”
i said that as tears were falling

her legs are aching
she isn’t running
she is actually walking,
with her head down
attention...
she doesn’t want any of it
everything is a red flag
stone cold
just from a noise or a touch
nothing but fear inside her soul

upbeat songs
the kind of sound that
makes your mood brighter
or slow ballads
those few lines that give off chills,
because you can relate
i dont know what to listen to
im feeling quite down
am i in the mood to jam out?
or should i be a sloth?
you know
just let the uneasiness seep in
do i even have the energy
to make myself feel better?

so it was true
i wasted my time
and you told me from the start
don’t you feel bad for me?
i cried and cried
i was patient for the longest
thats just down right selfish
and the thing is
you don’t even realize that