Every so often you get the urge to blur out your friends and family,
To blur out those who claimed to love and care about you.

The term “I’ll always be there” is a deceiving lie,
The only lie you unconsciously attempt believing when you’re sinking in a vortex of pure loneliness.

Is it sincere?
Or just a form of temporary vague comforting?
I say,
You pick yourself up and shake off your own dirt;
Because ninety-nine percent of your living days,
Tears will be staining your shirt.
And loneliness will knock on your door once, twice or many more,
Maybe break through your windows from the second floor.

Tell me now,
Who cares about you at all?

Slowly,
Surely,
Filling my thoughts and dreams,
I was so sure when we met,
So sure when we kissed,
So sure until this,

She told you to make your choice,
But will it be the one I want,
Will it be the one that will make us last,
Or will it be the one to rip us apart,

For us to continue,
Something has to give,
With it creeping in,
Will you choose us,
Or lose us,

I can not wait around,
Waiting until,
You decide to really change,
Because part of me,
Being eaten away by it,
Thinks people don't change,

You think,
I will push us apart,
In reality it's you,
I just don't know what to do,

I am simply being drowned by the **DOUBT

i never meant to hurt you
but eventually.. i did
i wouldnt dream about letting you down
but i did anyways
i didnt wanna make you sad..
but i failed at making you smile
i have no choice left then saying goodbye..
but i cant

(c.m.h)