all those years, you were waiting
on your knees, a soldier surviving
waiting to pull me out of the dark
but darling, don’t cross the line
this is where I live, where I stand
the darkness is what I feast
I breathe fire and drink tears
a falcon, I haunt your dreams
a beetle, dressed in fear
sneaking into your ear
whispering riddles, sincerely
to my soldier, to my dear
to my lover, to my queen
to my prince, to my hawk
you’re the curse that I caught

i was only there to satisfy you
only to let you see rainbows
and beautiful dreams

baby i am your marvelous dream
always been coloring your nightmares
until i became your worst enemy to date

i’m the one who your hands made
of flowers and honey for heaven’s sake
but i’ll sweep the nicest colors
my own hands made

i’ll replace the walls with the colors
you were born to be
in drabness your soul’s forever drowning
no place is keen for you to flee

then i’ll leave you in the darkness
you’re so used to being
until the days ahead are no longer
to be seen

i’ll give you your worst goodbyes
welcoming them by new eyes

you got me
under the spell of love
it’s hard to deny
all the words that make me sob
tell me one line of a song
that makes you want to shout
my name and my mistakes
then all the tears are about
to make the song of love

speak me into your existence
I yet have to learn to listen
carefully tracing every distance
slowly entering your prison
you spoke me
and I lived
you forgot me
and I slipped

i realized being too nice won’t get me anywhere
so i stoped that too
and that nice, will be fading also

In a garden full of dead roses
Damaged hopes and dreams, they represent
Leaning on other branches
In hoping to survive

But what is survival
If they don’t chase the sun
To live for another day, is the wish
Getting the last drip of water, is the key

I don’t encourage the desperate need to win
I urge the deeds of winning
Doesn’t matter how high you got
At least you saw the hill

Next time you fall, get up
And if I’m not around
Remember the roses
Be flourished, be blossomed

Be sparkling red.

little star around a house
surrounded by silver flowers

nightgown selflessly arouse
to greet moon in the drawer

hey there little lady, will you bow?
I hid pain with thy fierce power

thank the heavens I never drowned
gentle feet obscure sand a slight dour

tears full of stories books could douse
guidance awaits in demolished towers

‪i want to feel something real‬
all my dreams have settled
to change the way
i used to breathe
yes, i’m lonely
drinking my unused feelings away
i love so intensely
but nowhere i can put
them romances out of scene
excluding real emotions i feel
is real hard when my life
rejects every heart i keen to feel
i am the reason why i walk in despair
a scared teenager told how to breathe
in a way that‪ rivaled‬ inside of me
making me a used object to teach
how to love
when nothing is acceptable to feel

the passion exploded and i was created
i was hardly pulled and separated
from a womb that belonged to a woman
that later i called her mother
a nervously standing man
in a corner full of cans
biting his nails thinking of a way to ban
my hopeful dreams that i was being fed
by shining stars while i was little in bed
i dreamt about having a role
to end hunger and hug the lonely souls
i dreamt about changing lives
and mend all the broken hearts
but as soon as my feet hit the ground
i was lost and completely stripped
of all the reasons to be happy
the reasons to stay sane and steady
each year passes and i gain tiny drops
drops of tearful agonies but somehow
i saw an edge of the brightest mountain
waiting for me to open the curtains
let the hopeful rays light the gloomy room
and burn those who said you can’t bloom

what if we stopped the time
to the moment where you held my hand
and told me it’s okay to cry when i’m sad
it’s okay to scream when i’m mad

what if we stopped the time
to the moment when our eyes locked up
in a fantasy
our bodies attached and picked up
to a room of secrecy

what if we stopped the time
and told you i love you a thousand times
before the clock ticks and end our time

what if we stopped the time
under the sky forever staring at the stars
and longing for a moment of mending scars
desiring a form of you
sculpted into my heart
dreaming of you
transforming into shapes of art

what if we stopped the time
because i hate saying goodbye

‪please kiss me before I disintegrate into fixed stardust on your roof, even then I will be forever watching over you‬

some were born lucky
life is easy for them
I guess I got the wrong key
now my life is dim
struggling to find a way to be
but my time is thin

she is someone who keeps me safe
someone who keeps me sane
someone brighter than the sun
the warmth of her love, burns
but overtime, she heals
she touches and she feels
every pain stuck inside you
a queen of her own castle
but she is confided in you