Have you ever gotten existential
Hit with the realization
That you are going to die
And you don't know when
Or how
But that it's inevitable

With the feeling that
you don't really matter
You are just passing by
Entertaining others
Not really changing anything
No impact

And that you
Have no idea
That there is an afterlife
You believe ofcourse
But there is no guarantee
But if there is
Even that is scary

If there is
How will it be
Is it really how your grandpa told
Like the bible tells
Like your dreams
But eternal life is scary
Eternal life in
Heaven
And in
Hell

I want to fall
So bad
To run
And trip
To crash
And burn
I want to hurt
To feel
Pain
A reason for it
The air is
Thin
Can't take too much
It hurts
But why?
No reason at all

Im sitting
In the dark
Waiting

What am I waiting for?
A call
From who?
Anyone
At this point, does it really matter?
Does it?
Yes
Because I'm waiting for a call

I know
You care about me
10 more people do
Yet I can't get rid
Of this feeling
Of doom

I know
I have you
10 more people too
Yet I can't find a person
To talk to
late at night