Colorblind, Drunk and Wine
You wont stand
Backing away from me
Cheers for the Memories that I made
That I wish I could forget
You never stood tall
You said my way wasnt for you
I told you I could change
Still wasnt good enough
My stomache aches
You push me away , I pull you close
I push you away, you say" please dont let go"
I dont know where we stand
I should probably let you go
But I still see you in my dreams
I knew that feeling like this couldnt last a lifetime
I Don't know how to love, neither do you
I was gonna say goodbye, but I wont

I kick you out of my world
And you stay
You introduce me to yours
Signs you show that are telling me to go
Run away because you don't want me here with you
Push and pull
Sick-cycle carousel
Wonderful days and ****** nights
Leaving me perplexed
What is it that you want?
Is it someone new, is it to destroy me too?
I've been broken before thats for sure
I dont break that easily , I dont come undone
Battle after battle I've won.
You won't destroy me , you won't
I got better plans for the world
I wont let anybody tell me that I'm wrong
My heart is one, its a whole
I just realize that I'm better off alone.

Going back and fourth with my  journey
Should It matter where you go?
Overthinking about the past
Clogging my future
Remember to **** those memories
Keep walking but where?
Does It matter anyways?
How you handle yourself?
What shoes you wear, the color of your hair?
This moment just passed but
I'm clinging on it with my jaws

No quiero que llegue mañana
Hoy está bien por hoy
Mañana me engaña
Me promete que mejora
Pero sigue siendo igual
En cambio, hoy, es simplemente Hoy
No se espera nada
Solo se disfruta, mientras se pueda
Mañana me entristece
Me envuelve y me miente
Solo quiero un hoy para siempre
Quiero no darle mente

I'm thankful for not having the life I desire
For wishing for the planets to whisper in my ear
I thank the world for those trips Ive never taken
For the sadness, for the smiles that don't occur
Someday perhaps..Ill be ungrateful and not thank you
I shouldn't be
I got a optimistic spirit that wont let go
I thank you for this back pain and migraine
I don't know what I would do without you
You've given it all to me

Did you see her pass by with all the sass?
It isn't me
I only  see heavens , stars and clouds
Did you ever mentioned love?
I don't remember, I wasn't aware you noticed me at all
Never a keeper, Always reacher
I need a hall pass for this life
Waiting for another
Those things wont happen
The universe can't hold me
You surely didn't want to
Again inside those little worlds
That deteriorate my soul
They're getting bigger now as we grow old
Stop the world for a second
Let me hold my breath
Let me believe that I'm someone they care for

Alone is a lonely word
You take from me and I give you more
Never expecting that type of love
The one that only legends  get
Help me see myself as you see me
The wonderful me that doesn't exist
The shameless, useless me
Rescue my soul from the end
No, I don't care if you go but please come back
Help me feel empty inside
The way you always fill my heart
Tear me and bring me to pieces
So that I could never repair
Just scream, and yell and show me how much you care.

You erased me
You threw me out like a dog
But you carried me before,
You made promises not long ago
Nothing lasts not even my smile
You blew me off and didn't explain why
I Just got a headache but no, I won't cry
You don't deserve my tears
Cause you never tried to conquer my heart
You shut the door so fast
My heavy heart became so cold
You didn't come, and you didn't go
Now, all that's left is for me to let go

Should I run or should I hide?
I don't know about my life
North or south
I have no option but to choose one
But don't know which turnpike
Which montain, sea or river must be..
I've chosen the dark
The cold, the lost
The place that has never been found
It doesn't exist, It isn't a place but a state of mind
Maybe I'ts a planet of some kind
I keep searching for what?
There comes a time for each of us, were one feels alone
It wont go away, It stays with you till the end.

This Feeling of meaningless
Take me to the night,
Where I find my comfort
Take me to a place where my light shines
And I don't have to hide
To pretend that I'm okay
I don't know where that is
I hope to find it some day
Sleeping alone, In my dreams I find hope
I know shelters, spaces open, and wide
Take me home, If that is what home means.

Living someone else's life
Walking in someone else's toes
Troubling  someone else's mind
Singing someone else's song
Thinking about someone else's past
Not enough time to find my own heart
Waiting for the day that I find my way
To stop Living someone else's dream.

Im not looking for love,
But you don't offer me much
Your actions are just words
I feel obliged to say hello,
Even though I know we dont see eachother in quite sometime
But you're not my age,
You will never understand the worries inside my head
What I suffer from time to time,
Cause you never ask,
I know what It feels like
Been Used, and reused
Wont you please leave me now?
Cause I wont say goodbye
I dont know how
Feeling the pressure to keep alive something
That doesn't feel right

Ghost Boys,

Always leaving us behind..
Roaming around,
Scaring you off then rewind

Ghost Boys

No one sees them , but they're there
With their translucent light
They always come at night

Ghost Boys,

Fear them not,
Push them away..
Or else the'll stay and never leave
Always on your Mind

Ghost Boys,

They hide in your bed, and in your car
WIthout any notice ..they come back
Making you believe in them.
But remember...
They're just a bunch of ghosts

When the sun falls,
The moonlight shines
I can't sleep away those nights
I feel attached, I feel drawn to the times I've created a song
Only at night, I trust myself
I feel blessed
The stars are guiding lights
That show me the way to my heart
In the day, that power fades
What does his mean?
I'm not sure.. but only in the night
I want to find out more.

I'm made for heartbreak
I've been blessed with cuts and bruises
No lashes for my eyes to open them wide
To discover the culprit
The Hunter , the one who preys
Who loves to see me on the floor begging for more
I' was made to know I don't belong to them
Those hearless ******* who destroy me
Using my heart as a toy
That they play with the intention to throw away

You come and go,
And put behind pieces of me I cannot find
You leave me stranded on this desert , you know the place
You take me there, I stay alone
But you return home
Then again, I find my way
Wondering where I put my medicine?
Can you explain the reasons why you left?
I don't even know If it's all true
If it's a dream, that's what It feels like when Im with you
You're like a magician, Pulling tricks that no one can see
Breaking people in two,
Escaping while you can
And It's all a game to you,
The way you appear and dissapear
Leaving no trace
Stop making ways into my heart
And make someone else the helper of your lies

I'm confused
I can't let you in
There's a small space just for me to fit in
You can't come in
My heart's too big
What if I can't see, breath or feel?
Can you carry the weight?
Sure thing, you say.
I don't believe you just yet
There's someone else
Someone that doesn't exist
But I hang on to them
Like a life jacket on a crashing plane
Like a memory on a dying soul
Please Don't go
Cause I am broken
I just don't know how this goes
Ive never been an expert on love
You should Stay, If you care but if you dont
Please Stay away, cause Im hollow
And all this won't just dissapear
As the time goes.

These only makes sense
Its the music in me that never ends
That melody I can't hold in for too long
Because It aches.. My heart aches
And even if I say no
Its what makes me feel alive
I don't want people to listen,
I only keep It to myself
Cause they'll take it away and make me
believe Im not part of this, when I know I am
They will crush me like they know how
Im weak, Im insecure
But Its pure, and Im empty
This feeling wraps me up

No creo en mi
No creo en nadie
Solo creo en no creer que puedo hacer
lo que quiero
No entiendes?
Yo tampoco quiero entender
Pues no tiene sentido creer
En la vida, o en algun ser
Adios, Que le vaya bien
Tampoco creo en el ayer
Espero que alguien me ayude a crecer
a vivir sin miedo , a desatar mis penas.
Siempre, siempre estas,
pero quien?
No hay nadie ahi,

There's something about Him
Don't know what It is
It makes me daydream about times that
never exist
And He's not around
He'll never come to my house
But I wish to be born at that time
We shared fresh air
Goodbye , So long..
Hope you're In good place
You're Better off

She Lies In her Head
Whispers Words left unsaid
Never Thinks about the past
Just the thought of a new life
Damaging everyone, she doesn´t Care
All she feels is unhappy
I feel alive , she feels dead
It's no one's fault but hers
Take me back to your paradise
Loose Those ponytails and
Dance with your hair
Life aint simple ****
"But try to make it forth living", they said.
I try.. I try..

Life begins to feel like a prison
Invisible bars of society and rules you can't trespass
Maybe death is freedom
Right now it all seems depressing
Work, health, love ,and stress
I'm so JOY-LESS
I remember the times when Simplicity ruled
I give you this , you give me that
There is no real human kind
You're not free to be who you wanna be
Just follow the trends and you'll see
How miserable you can be
In this world filled with greed.

A sweet memory is all that's left
Of All those moments we spent
There won't be new memories
Cause You left It all to chance,
Never committing to our bond
Never thinking you did wrong
I won't wait for you no more
I'm tired of making sense
Of an image in my head
Thinking we were endless
Waiting for you to change
But you're always inside my head
And you never leave that way
Always thinking about when we meet again
And then you left with no goodbye
And I knew I was wrong
For letting you inside for too long
Goodbye memoir.

I wake up to fall asleep
In a dream that I don't get to live
In A life, I wish I could sleep in
I work to live but I live at work
And That's my curse.
It consumes my energy , my life,
My soul
I hate coming home, always tired as ****
Not wanting to do anything at all
I wanna quit my job,
But I don't wanna be unemployed
God knows If I could
I'd do nothing at all

I work In an office with closed doors
I go out to places I don't want to go
My life consists of everything I never imagined
And Still I can't get out of it
I never chose to have this living
But for some reason It choose me
I stay up thinking about what I really wanted
About the things I would like to do on the weekends
With the imaginary friends that accompany me to
those places
I'm the person that I want to be
But people say you should be thankful for what you have
But my reality is that I wish  I was someone else
That I didn't suffer from migraines
That I didn't have to go on a diet
And I was surrounded by pets
Maybe some day when I die
I get to  live all over again
The Life and the people that made sense,

You make me want to Throw up
Your food is so bad I might choke and die
With Disgusting flavors and smells
Suddenly, I don't feel so well
Food is suppose to be Enjoying
Not like the one you serve, Its annoying
I cant stand thinking you could earn money
Out of the awful food you Serve.
Please, go to hell
Food is suppose to be good, not bad
Otherwise I wont buy.
Goodbye and farewell,
To your food from hell
I wont eat it never again
Please Lord..
They make the worst hamburger in the world
This gotta stop
You have to change the food
You ruined my adulthood


.

Have you found that thing yet?
That thing that makes you feel at peace
Have you found the meaning of your life yet?
And I'm not talking about a wife and kids.
Is something that comes at ease
Do you have that It thing?
Tell me what It is
Some people have tons of ****
And I only feel bliss
And we will never be complete
Until we find that thing
That thing inserted in your mind
That you should be someone,
Someone Important,
Otherwise you've failed as a person.

Interrupted dreams and desires
By my daily routine
Interrupted breathing.
I can barely breathe
From the dust that surrounds me
From all the pain that caused me
This life interrupted
The things that make me happy.
Because I gotta do my laundry,
And pay bills , no other way to live
I cant even have a hobby
No energy or money
And again I cant breathe,
I got an allergic reaction from
Not pursing my dreams.

I hate it, I despise what I do.
Cause It aint true
I'm not happy, I change my mind
I wanna go back in time
And say no to all those lies
That made me become the person I am
Today, I'm Sad, lost, and depressed
Without a purpose,
Without a cause,
Without anything I care about,
Life is hard when you don't love what you do
You only wish you could fly to the moon
Or leave the world you're In
You only want to dream
About places you haven't been
Cause you're tired of living only to survive
You don't feel alive
If I could start over, erase and rewind
Maybe later, maybe Never

Nadie quiere amar
Solo alejan la posibilidad de  
Pensar que es posible ser amado
Solo siento que me pierdo en mi
mundo de tristeza
Luchando por estar en paz
Nadie quiere , nadie viene, nadie vuelve
Y sera que soy yo quien repela al amor
Al vivir, al querer ser feliz?
Me falta completar en la vida
Andar con la frente en alto
y decir que no me importa con quien ando
Esperar que algun dia llegue ese momento
En el cual me sienta bien y no mal
Y dejar de esperar en que alguien va llegar
Que se quede y que se quede..
Y que no me deje ir jamas.

Me husmeas y me dejas
Oliendo a ti, Al sabor de tus besos
en mi boca
Pero te vas, siempre te vas
Siento que te pierdo
Porque ya no estas
Y si quisieras te podrias quedar
Pero te vas, dejando una parte de ti en mi
De la cual no me puedo safar
Y es tu aliento que invade mi interior
Atada me siento a un aroma
A cada olor de tu cuerpo
Y puedo estar comiendo y
Me acuerdo al sabor de lengua
Aquel dia que olvide tu fragancia
Ese dia olvidare mi infancia.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder?

Or is it getting surgery for when I’m older?

They say what matters it’s on the inside

But my friends only talk about breast size

And if it’s okay to wear my natural hairstyle

But they only criticize

I have flaws but if I show them, I got a problem

This need for perfection, Leaves me broken

Feeling bad for not being chosen

Because of my appeal, but some people out there

Don’t care.. Yes they do,

Everyone cares about little details like gray hair

Maybe someday I can be careless and free

And not worry about all these things..

I seem to find nothing to do under the sun
That I don’t get tired from
I try to make it fun
But a boring activity always comes
That makes me feel empty and undone
Feeling like I don’t belong in this world
If happiness is a state of mind,
Why can I just leave all these feelings behind?
They haunt me night and day
I’m craving for a new beginning.
Could be in France or Egypt
Near a mountain or a beach
And maybe find someone to teach
So I can find peace in this tiny piece of earth
Or some kind of satisfaction
And a distraction from the problems of my life
Getting away from home
So I cant get rid of this Boredom

You cheated, you lied, you mistreated,
You implied, you cared,
I believed you, I failed
I lied as well,
But I truly loved your heart
I fell in love with it at the park
when you held my hand,
And you were carved on my soul
with your whispers and your songs
You said they had my name
But all that went away,
Its so easy to say things,
But to actually do them, that's hard as hell
Your love is like a roller-coaster, you take me high
You pushed me down, without notice, without alarms
Please walk out the door, if you don't love me anymore
Or be the man you said you would, when I opened up for you.

I have no reasons to love you, but I do
You only caused me pain, but I also remember your shoes
As you walked towards me with those eyes, no they're not blue
I hate me without you
I find excuses to not show you I care
Cause If you care you show that as well
I don't know your family or friends
I don't care about the color of your hair
Just that you stay close to me,
I can't think about eternity
I hate that you're so friendly
I wonder If you think about me like I do?
Its hard to forgive you, and to forget you.
I want to start something new with him,
But he's no you

Destiny is a *****
She comes and gives you a high and then says goodbye
She gives you the time of your life
But then you realize It was just a lie
Makes you find what you’re looking for
But leaves you wanting for more
Her timing *****.
Even though the memories were great
You wonder if they’ll ever happen again
I don’t know if it’s all worth it to see you
And leave you
To have this feeling, to feel like I’m living
If I cant have you, if you don’t want to
But we’ll never know
Until she decides that is time for us to reunite

I remember you since my youth
I never thought you'll give me the blues
I always thought you had a plan
But It never became into something
Are you still in my heart?
Cause All I hear is Tan,Tan,Tan
So much pressure you made me feel
About **** that wasn't real, no big deal
I still don't get heaven or hell
I just wanna feel well
About my life and the future
I just want that peace you say you give
And I don't wanna go to church
Cause people don't care much
About none but themselves
They only dust their shelves
It isn't like the community back in the days
Were everyone shared
Now its just a club,
And they never give up
Insisting on you to go,
But I wanna stay home or sleep
On my day off
Which is Sunday,
No fun-day.

Why doesn't he want to get to know me?
Or at least tell me what wrong with me?
Instead of making me go insane
For not knowing who's to blame
And If you ask? they never tell
Whats going on inside their heads
I know I'm not perfect, I make my mistakes
Is it so hard to love me this way?
Heartbreak after heartbreak makes my heart quake
I don't wanna care, I just wanna know what the ****
Is going on with you today?

I feel like **** for ..
Wasting my time with you
For allowing you to make plans for two
For not knowing you were flawed
For thinking Its my fault
For waiting for the day
You'll come with your act straight
**** is what this is
And will always be
And no, I don't blame you for leaving
But I do hate my feelings.

You play well, the instruments, my heart, the bells
You said you loved me, but
You never showed it, dear
Played the fool
Played me too
You even played with my friends,
They thought you were cool
Played a role, Leading Man
But you were also the Villain
Played Tricks on my mind
Love is blind?
Played me a song by Pink Floyd
But only for a while,
Then you retired.

I will never tell my kids about you
They will never know about that time we created a poem
They will never find out about
You caring about me for so long
I guess they wont ever hear about
The way you made me Feel
How we talked for hours every day
for years
No, they won't get to know that even
with your mistakes, I loved you to death
But that will never come to appear in books
or in Hymns
Cause It ended.. You never seemed to think
It was a Big deal
The love that only I feel
This connection that felt so real
That I thought was stronger than steel
But I was wrong
and They would never know..

I wanna cry but I can't find the tears
Its like they're lost somewhere inside me
I wanna go look for them cause I feel bad
And I believe they will help me feel less sad
For them to come and I will embrace this sorrow
I keep thinking I wan't to borrow You
To make me happy but I don't have a clue
I wish my body would release them but only
when I want them to
Cause If I make a habit of crying
I will feel like dying
I would cry about anything and everything
like a silly painting on a wall
or a beach somewhere abroad
And I don't want people to notice,
I don't want them to care
I Just want you to have that job as well
Help we cry but with tears of joy,
Cause They never come only when
I let you go.

I wanna **** myself maybe
For letting fear become my pride
For not cherishing every moment Im alive
I get upset with me maybe,
For not letting go of the past
For holding on to your memories
And to your goodbyes
I want to flee far from here
To a place I feel comfortable to be myself
Cause Everyday I feel my body decomposing
Cause I dont live up to my expectations
Its killing me inside
Like that time you didn't hold me when I cried.

I keep telling myself I don't Love
I try to tell myself I don't care
Because the last time I tried, It hurt like hell
I feel like you don't love me, or love means
different things to everyone
But my idea of love is eternal, faithful,
caring and true, and I haven't found that in you
This just leaves me with a sour taste
A confusing waste of time,
Never knowing what truly means to be loved
I guess even when you say so, it feels like a lie
To me love is an action, a verb,
Not a word you throw out when you're bored
It feels like love doesn't exist anymore

I never lied to you, I showed you my true self
I never covered up any skeletons
You said you love me, but you went away,
I don't blame you, I never asked you to stay
Did you ever wonder what It would do to me?
When you said you'd calm my fears,
I trusted you to be there for me
I wont betray you , if that's what you're afraid of
But you never gave me a chance to show you
what I'm made of
I guess all I'm saying is goodbye,
I remember all those things that you said
And I just wish you would explain
If you have someone else, I hope you're happy
And actually keep your promises
I wish you well, don't get me wrong,
But I would of liked to hear your honesty all along
Not some fairy tale story that didn't amount
to nothing at all

Why Do I count the days that you ran away,
Did you know you took a piece of my heart?
Why do I remember your steps as if it was yesterday?
And years have passed away
I hated the last time, you had nothing to say
Not saying "I love you", instead "I'm doing great"
I don't understand this feeling you don't deserve
And you don't desire for me to demostrate
I don't get it but I still think about you
I know I could never be with you
But I can't help to think If she's with you
I opened up my heart and it felt like
It meant nothing and was worth nothing
Why can I just remember you like the thief
you are, instead I dream of you as the love I lost
And wanted with all my heart
Maybe, Im in love with my sorrow
with the could of's and the should of's
and never appreciate tomorrows
Maybe love is all part of a game,
We don't know we're being played until we've lost
Maybe, it was never meant to be
And I wish you never know this
that I cry for you, cause I can't forgive myself
for feeling this love that never existed in you

No matter what I do to make you happy
You always make me feel ******
Even when It isnt my job to make you feel safe
I wish I wasn't born faithless
Maybe I learned that from you as well
It's like you want others to be just like you
Not caring about what they really wanna do
Maybe when you're old you've realize what you've done
But now, you still think you're the only one
who's right at all

Where is my mind? lost and behind
Stuck on this past that I cant unwind
With the sickness on my hands
And these lovers becoming predators
of a heart that's already ******
Where is my mind? sick of hurt, sick of lying
Waiting for a happiness expecting to be happening
With Lots of stories, full of glory but never coming true
Where is my mind? fighting these thoughts that tear me apart
in pieces, that make me cry, that make me feel dead inside
Where is my mind? trying not to become insane
with all this blame
with all the things that make me scared
when darkness comes It will all come back again