I wanna be with you but you're hard to reach
Its like you have so many things you wanna teach
And when I come closer to you
You push me away and never ask me to stay
I keep waiting for you to change
But you don't love me anyway
I was scared cause you were so great
But Its seems like I won't get you
And maybe I pushed you away everyday
But only cause I like you and I wanted to
spend time with you
But maybe someday I'll meet someone
Who won't run away , Even if I loved you instead.

Where is Honesty? Is so hard to find
So people say they look at you, but they seem blind
To your thoughts and feelings
We don't see eye to eye
Instead you go around life feeling like you wanna die
And you hope you'll meet someone and
They accept you as you are
And not be afraid to show your flaws
Instead society says you should sale yourself
like your a product to be bought
And you need to say the right things
So guys would wanna stick around
What have we become?
If not lonely fools afraid of whats to come
We should look inside ourselves
And try to find those old shelves
That carry our true beings
And expose them and be careless
If you accept me fine,
But if not , I could care less

I found a new love, I've always longed for
Even More than you.
What I wanted more, Even if it isn't true
I've forgotten myself and my dreams, since you came into my life
All I wanted was to breathe you in.
But since you're gone,I remembered what makes me whole
What I truly live for
There's nothing I want more.
I hope you never return
But if you do, I'll show you
what I replaced you for
Something as pure as the Sun
This passion running through my veins
I wont hesitate to hide it no more
I need to let go of my fears
or Death will be near.

Hate my life
Been stuck for years
In a place I don't belong
Never done anything of worth
To afraid to let go
Helping people
Never got me an award
Hate my job.
Hate myself for not taking a chance
For not leaving this place
For staying close to what
I hate the most
That made me into something
I don't even know
Hate the *******
Hate this feelings
Hate the lungs that I
breath in
Hate my world
Stuck in the past
Love lost
Where are you God?

Maybe You see life as a test
I see it like a big mess
I remember every word you said
And still I cannot Forget
The way you made me feel
That day when I needed you there
And you ran away
I can't get over it cause I still feel rejected
since that day
I've been trying to make amends,
Trying to find some way to feel Okay
Like I belong somewhere,
Like I'm worthy again..
I don't have hepatitis or aids
but I feel like they
Maybe It's your fault, maybe Its mine
ALL I know is this trace of pain
that you left my way
Hopefully someday I look back and not
feel sad when I think about that day
The day you push me away..
I don't know what I did to deserve this misery
I hope that in the end it all makes sense

Dias en que no quiero escribir, no quiero pensar, no quiero vivir
Lo dificil es planear tu vida y que eso no llegue a ocurrir
Perder el control de ella
Quiero vivir a mi manera, imagino lo que quiera
Y que ganamos con esto? cumplir lo que queremos?
A veces todo es tan complejo.. Siempre me quejo
Si bailamos , reimos ,y lloramos ?
Cuando nada te da satisfación, y todo se vuelve monótono
Nacer de nuevo seria la solución?
Gente viene y va, solo quedan los momentos y la edad.
Pienso en el amor y si es una falsedad?
Porque sentirse tan vacio cuando alguno no esta?
Como hacer que te vuelva la bondad? la caridad ? la hermandad?
Si sólo el egoismo reina en nuestra sociedad.
Sonar cliche debe ser un delito, pero está tan arraigado en nosotros
que nos vuelve adictos al sin fin de comunes que vivimos..

I'm sorry if I was ******* you when I said goodbye
If I hurt you by letting you see I was hurt
I mean no harm or pain
I do wish you the best
Don't believe me when I say.
I don't want to talk to you cause I do
But I can't be your friend maybe never again
I wish I could because I value your friendship so much
I wish my feelings weren't as strong
but they are bigger than I had ever known
I wish I could just take them away and we could talk like before
I feel like I lost a true friend
If you ever read this just know
that you are one of the best people I've ever known
I wish I could of told you this and so many things more
But It was time for me to let you go
I forgave you and I hope you can grow
Forgive me if I treat you like a stranger
But I have no other choice
I'm not as strong as you thought I was
If you ever read this just know
I wish you happiness and joy.

A veces las cosas no salen como queremos,
Los tropiezos se hacen rutina
Las lagrimas se convierten en ríos,
y los oceanos de alegría se secan.
Con el tiempo nos damos cuenta de que
no siempre hay un final feliz como
en las peliculas,
no todos tenemos la vida resuelta,
Personas que estaban , ya no estan
Lugares que conociamos parecen desconocidos,
pero la vida sigue hacia donde?
Nadie sabe.. Lo que si se es que aprendemos, a ser mas fuertes,
a luchar contra lo que sea, a pelear como un samurai
a mirar hacia delante y aunque a veces miremos hacia
tras, a voltear la mirada.
A buscar libertad aunque sea prohibida y la paz aunque sea escasa.
A perdonar a quien no merece y a ver lo bueno en las personas
que de verdad se preocupan por ti.
A no ser exigente y aceptar el momento y ser feliz con el pedazo de pan diario.
A buscar conocimiento en un lugar vacio,a hacer preguntas ,
a no ocultar las dudas, A questionar nuestro alrededor,
a estar firmes en lo queremos y a no saciarnos con la mediocridad.
Y lo mas importante a ser quien eres..
Arriesgarte y pararte al frente de tus miedos y seguir caminado hacia el cielo.

Cada dia mas, me siento mas lejos de mi misma
Ya no hay pasos adelante , sino pasos hacia tras
Solo hay piedras en mi camino, no hay espacios para caminar sin tropezar
Y dicen que lo que no te mata te hace mas fuerte, pues a mi me ha vuelto
mas debil, sintiendo como mi vida se me escapa de mis manos
ya no se que hacer para cambiar mi destino
Solo existen pocos momentos de alegria y paz
Solo existe soledad ,Solo existen pensamientos atormentadores
y mis replicas de angustia
Solo existen ellos, y yo dejo de existir cuando se apoderan de mi
y mi yo, se vuelve inexistente.

And here once more ,I find myself writing all this words
Complaining all my sorrows
They never leave me ,they never borrow
Someone else's time instead of mine
People wish me luck, that I've never had
Don't wish to find placebo for it neither
I just hope for a new day to begin
I'm sick of feeling a Deja Vu that never ends
It only revives again in my heart
No matter how well It starts
It all ends back to that lonely empty part
I can't run away from it
It's always hiding in the dark
I wish I promised myself to find a way out of this
To never come back
But I keep finding myself here again,
where all this suffering began

Right now anything makes sense more than this
The leaves on our trees have lost their color
I don't feel the need for life anymore
All I feel is emptiness inside a tunnel of never ending sorrow
You should have never walked inside my house
Now, I cant keep you out
Your spirits haunt me down
I keep feeling like I need to keep you away
And I just don't know how to make you stay
You're such an important piece of my puzzle
All I want is to forget you ever happened
And forget about this pain you caused me
I cant understand you but I cant stop loving you
Someday when It all ends, I hope all I feel is sanity
I'm afraid of that , feeling okay cause I've felt bad
for so long, maybe I don't know what It feels to feel safe

If you don't stay, know that I won't look your way
If you decide to leave, even if it tears me apart
I will believe again in someone else
If you let me go, I'll understand but I won't hold on
I'll erase you and replace you
If you think I'll run after you forget it, I wont chase you
If you find someone new, just remember I'll do that too
If later you come knocking at my door, you'll find an empty house and floors
If you come back, please take a few steps back and follow your other track
If you never leave me, We'll always stay together
even after hard weather
Ill always love you, Ill always be true
I'll show you what I can do for you
If you fight for me, I'll fight back for the only one
who showed me how to stick around.

I find myself wondering were I've gone
Its like I had a brain transplant
Who have I become?
All the stuff I used to worry about are nowhere found
My perception has blurred
And now I'm somewhere I don't Belong
But one thing is crystal clear
And from that I cant escape
From this longing inside my veins
That takes me to where I need to be
Imagining places I long to meet
Making my shadows become true beings
And in this place I see myself free
But I can only go there whenever I fall asleep