justchynaa

justchynaa Jan 2016

You misunderstood me
While I tried to understand you
I understood the games you played on me
But you misunderstood when the game was played on you
See I tried to understand that with love comes pain
But you misunderstood my love and thought it was all a game
You couldn't understand me the way I understood you
You ain't understand the love I gave was genuinely true
So instead you left cause you were so misunderstood and too lazy to try
To understand my love for you so you drowned yourself in your lies
Saying I hated you and I never loved you
Tried to convince yourself I didn't care
You became so misunderstood of me and tried to believe I was the person you made up in your head
All along you yearned for understanding and understanding is what I gave
You convinced me that our love was understood so it didn't need to be explained
In this misunderstood state of mind with these misunderstood thoughts
I wonder if you understood my love for you
Or were you just so misunderstood that you never even gave love a thought...

#love #misunderstood #thoughts #thinking

justchynaa Jan 2016

Happy Place

I close my eyes & go to my happy place
And in that place there was me & you
But when I open my eyes and come to reality
I no longer see you standing there smiling at me
In you is where I found my happiness
Felt like all my dreams had came true
But when you left you took my happiness
And all my hopes and dreams fell through
My happy place became vacant of you
Thus making life harder to follow through
But one day alone in my room I thought to myself I could be happy without you
From my mind you faded more and more
The thought of emotions fading hurt me to the core
But I knew this is what I had to do in order to be happy without you
My love for you will never fade
But being in love with you was something that changed
I could say your name now and not cry
This is the most I've ever felt alive
I close my eyes & go to my happy place
And in that place is me
Living life to the fullest and finding happiness within me
I smile more and laugh more and its not cause of you
But cause I learned to look for happiness in me
Instead of happiness within you.

#love #happiness #free #independent

Jan 2016

sαndяα-αℓєxιs

Stories Untold

I never knew how to love myself
Ending up trying but I just loathe myself
Some say it's insecurity
And some say I need help

It's kind of difficult
All these battles I've fought,
Internally...
But I'll admit it's still hurting me

The decisions I've made in the past
The mistakes I can't take back
Secrets no soul will ever know
Stories that will never be told

Wondering how did I let it get this far
How did I let it get this hard
To be happy and open up
Every time I try I get choked up

Buried inside my own soul
Regrets I have to let go
How can I tell my truth,
Without losing you?

This was a struggle to write since I haven't wrote anything in awhile and the raw emotions in this made it difficult.

#love #self #life #regret #pain #past #shame #soul #you #buried

Jan 2016

Endya Tremese

Fate is Fair

Fate is a *****
But she gets the job done
You gotta race through hell
When your heart is on the run

I had this girl hit me up
And say we had something in common
So I asked her wassup
And then my mind started wandering

When I realized that our love life
Was in the same hole
But talking to her faithfully
Made those feelings feel old

I started questioning myself
Thinking I had a new crush
But what I didn't realize
Was what had made me feel the rush

Just as simple as a text in AM
Had me sayin
That I should think about how heavy
These options were I was weighing

Being up all night texting
Had my mind and heart debating
When it was only relating
That made me see my feelings fading

Till one night this girl
Had done something amazing
She helped me get out that hole
And there my ex was, waiting

Apparently when I wasn't looking
They had had a conversation
That opened my exes eyes
To see the mistakes that we were making

As soon as I got out that hole
I seen all the similarities
It was the fact that she cared, listened
And gave me carefully-worded clarity

So I looked in my exes eyes
And seen she's the half I was missing
And now I'm happy to say
We're again making memories to remanaice on

But I look at that hole
And my friend is still there
And I want to get her out
But that's not my heart to repair

So I sit next to this hole telling her
Her ex still cares
Cuz I know what it feels like
To believe that something is still there

Cuz Love is kind, Karma's a *****
These are feelings we can't bear
Just remember Life is pain,
But Fate is is still fair

#love #life #fate #karma #endyatremesepoetry

justchynaa Jan 2016

Seasons Change

Love is like the seasons that come every year
We enjoy them dearly when they are here
But seasons change and love does too
But who would've thought your love would leave me
When those fall leaves fell from the trees
Who would've thought this would be my coldest winter because you aren't here with me
Who would've thought those spring rainfalls
would wash away those feelings you use to have
Who would've thought that summer wind would blow you past
Me I was the one you were in love with
But like a heat wave in the month of June
The Sun dried your love up for me too soon
3 1/2 years and what I assumed forever left
Changed so quickly like the seasons in the year
Now those spring raindrops are my tears
Now those cold winters are the coolness of my heart
And the leaves that fall from the trees are
the pieces of my heart
The seasons change and your feelings did too
Why can't you be in love with just as I am with you
I hope when the seasons change again that your feelings do too
Because I can't go through another change of seasons
Without enjoying the weather with you.

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