I'm good at writing,
I'm good at story telling,
I'm good at words to divert your feelings,
I'm good at paper and pen holding.

I can turn the pen into a beautiful word,
I can turn the paper into a perfect world,
I can make the ink into a piece,
I can make the rhyme that will never miss.

I can write something about you without any rant,
I can tell your story if that's what  you want,
I can play the words that is hard to pronounce,
I can make you smile if writing will be my chance.

How good can I be if you can't understand why I write?
How good can I be if you're not telling me if my story is right?
How can I flatter you with my words if I can't feel your emotions?
How can I hold a paper and a pen if there's a caution?

You're my pen in my every word,
You're my paper in my perfect little world,
You make the ink so I can make a piece,
You create the rhyme that I always miss.

But lately, I keep on messing up,
I keep on thinking to give up.
Lately I stop on dreaming,
and started to wish about something

Is it wrong for me to wish something?
Like can I be the subject to inspire you in writing?
or can you try to write me a story?
or can you create a piece about me?

One of my dreams is to see you;
Try, to make me smile by creating a piece full of words.
Try to make me smile by writing a rhyme saying I'm your world.
and try to make me smile by telling our story by breaking my words' record.

You were there when we laugh,
You were there to make us tough.
We were there to make you smile,
We stayed when you asked us to stay for a while.

You were there through ups and downs,
You were there to save us with a beautiful sound.
We were there when you cried,
We were there to catch you when you fall down from tired.

You will always be there to welcome us,
You will always be there to gave a lot of trust.
We will always be there to back you up,
We will always be there to make you on top.

You will always be there to bring us back with a light,
You will always be there to make everything as a positive sight.
We will be there when you need a call,
We will be there to catch you when you fall.

You will always look the same even if you grew old,
You will always be our sister it will never fold.
We will always look at you with all our love,
We will always be your friend like a flock of white doves.

You may and can change,
but we will never see it as strange.
You may and can forget,
but we will make sure to make another good memories with full set.

You may and can chase all your dreams,
we won't fail to make you firm.
You may and can create a whole new world,
but we will budge in without any words.

You may and can erase us,
but we won't stop to draw us back to your life.
You may and can stop loving us,
sorry to say but we will force to take your heart.

You must never forget who and what you are,
or else you will see our backs very far.
You must never chose us over your family,
or else you will never see us smile freely.

You must choose the right path,
stay at rest we will follow you back.
You must meet and wait us at the end,
we will make a new journey with all of us in trend.

You must choose what's best for you,
we must choose what's best for ourselves.
You must create a beautiful and unique dreams,
we must create a strong and wonderful memories.

I don't have a clue,
that I'm falling for you.
I never knew,
that I'll be stuck waiting for you.

I never thought,
it will come this far.
Far enough,
to wish to die with you in a war.

Loving you is never been so easy.
You're so sweet with her but not with me.
You catch her and fall with her.
You leave me and let me fall alone.

Cute love story,
but it's not about you and me.
One sided love?
Yeah it happens all the time.

Perfect night and late night talks.
Perfect smile and eyes full of love.
Perfect reason to fight but I chose to walk.
Perfect miles to walk cause I chose to go.

He was a boy,
She was a girl.
He likes toy,
She loves flower.

He likes black,
She's in to white.
He gave her luck,
She gave him light.

She is free,
He is happy.
She's so pretty,
He's so lucky.

It may seem so different,
She's the reason why he beam.
He has her parent consent,
and she fall in love with him.

Perfect choice,
Perfect partner.
Perfect voice,
Perfect lover.

Forever is a long way,
Never take the shortcut to go away.
Tomorrow is not enough,
Love each other like your better half.

I just want to be friends with you.
Do you feel the same way too?
One day you approach me.
I rub my eye if it was really you coming to me.

I thought it was just a dreams for me,
so I expected tomorrow you'll ignore me completely.
But our path meet again I feel like I'm insane,
You shout your name so I can recall you again.

Day past we became good friends.
Thank you for everything my friend.
You are my brother,
and I am your sister.

But I made a huge mistake,
and now I feel so sick.
I want to say sorry for everything,
forgive me about this thing.

I can't blame you for ignoring.
I'm crying hardly and suffering.
I really regret everything.
Brother, I'm still hoping.

I'm desperate for your forgiveness.
I feel so empty because of my sadness.
I can feel sorrow in my head,
to the point that I feel like I'm dead.

I feel lame,
I can't make you tame.
Save me from this pain,
Be part of my life again

It was always been like this,
you will smile at me and you will say---
"you're gonna be fine"
and I know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will run towards me and chant---
"I'm excited for your life"
but you know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will hug me and you will whisper ---
"I miss you"
but was I the one you miss or the lively vibe I give?

It will always turn out like this,
I'm gonna laugh when you make your dumb faces.
It will always turn out like this,
I'm going to smile even though i'm not okay.

It will always turn out like this
I'm going to be happy cause' you're here with me.
but why is it the one who always;
found out that i'm lying is you?

Why is it every time I will bring down a tear,
you're always here to catch it?
Why is it every time I die,
you're always there to bring me back to life?

I hated you,
for leaving me behind.
But now I still hate you,
for coming back right now.

Wait no, I hate that I like you.
I'm crazy enough to jump without you.
I'm a ***** to force you to fly with me.
I'm right to think that I have a lonely story.

Yet I still hate you.
You still treat me the same,
I'm still a lost child in your eyes.
I'm still the sister you care about.

I hate our 3 years age gap,
I hate that I'm your ideal sister.
I hate that I will never be your lover.
I hate that our age bring down the bridge

I hate you.
No wait, I hate that I like you.
Yet I still hate you.
I hate that I'm liking to love you

A toy is something you will play at,
Something you will call a past time,
Something you will enjoy to have at.
They have a toy and this is her life.

A boy ask what it feels like,
A girl tried to look deeper.
Someone smiled at her,
They tried to save her....

Brokenhearted? Talk to her.
Bored? Chat her.
Need a past time? Go to her.
Need someone? It's not her.

She's not a toy.
She's not someone you will play at
She's not someone you will call to have a past time.
She's not a toy to enjoy at.

No one asked what it feels like.
Nobody looked deeper.
No one tried to smile at her.
They all tried to save her, but failed.

She's not a toy.
Don't talk to her for the reason that you are blue.
Don't chat her for the reason that you are bored.
Never go to her for the reason you want to have a past time.

She's not perfect.
Sarcasm and insults affect her all the time.
She's full of words,
But it will all go wrong if she said "I'm not a toy"

I'm laying in bed,
But I felt the thread.
It's leading me instead,
in the way of my death.

Jealousy strikes again,
It give shivers and pain.
Yet, I don't have the rights,
cause you're not mine from the start.

Your laugh is like a melody,
and it was sang beautifully.
Again, it was made not for me,
but for your beautiful lady.

Your smile was vibrant,
it looks so elegant.
but babe, it was made for your lover ---
and it was not me I'm just a player.

I wish for a lot of things;
Like your name will appear always when my phone rings,
That I can hold your hand in public,
I can show my love without any hint of guilt.

I dream for a lot of things;
Like you will call me from night till morning,
That you'll be sweet in me in public,
You can show your love without any hint of fear.

You made an awesome creation,
I never asked but I felt your rejection.
So here's my best decision,
I love you but goodbye my happy station.

Eyes that reflected all the colors of blue,
And lips that never utters the truth.
Ears that is tired of listening with all of the request and lies,
and a million pieces of heart because of heartbreaks and cries.

She's always been the se cond choice,
She's tired of being always the bridge, for being always Eros' substitute.
She's been the one call away friend in a one sided friendship,
and now she can't keep the act as happy go lucky girl in front of the public.

She have the rainbow in her smile,
but there's a swelling storm in her eyes.
She have the brightest morning in her laugh,
but there's a depths of despair inside her mind.

She love him for the first time,
She never knew she'd be falling to deep.
She laid her eyes only to him,
She never knew it was hard to look away.

He is the reason of her smiles,
He is the reason why she listened to all the lies.
He is the reason of her every night cries,
He is the reason why she lost without giving a fight.

She have loved her for a short moment of time,
He have made her heart beats out of rhyme.
She made a great mistake of confessing,
He have made a decision that he doesn't have any feelings.

She was summer and she met her storm,
He was the storm and destroyed the summer.
She was the sun and she met her moon,
He was the moon and gave cold response to the sun.

She wanted to scream,
She wanted to tell that her world was so dim.
She wanted to say,
I don't want to be just your friend to call away.

I'm afraid when I fall to sleep,
I might dive too deep.
I'm scared to wake up,
for I thought my heart beat will stop.

I'm anxious to play in the rain,
people might think I'm insane.
It's so depressing to leave the house,
I might meet a lot of clowns.

I remembered how she smiled at me,
telling all the stories about me and our family.
I remember ** I fall asleep without any fear,
for her angelic and sweet voice is all I can hear.

I remembered how she laugh at me while playing-
cause' I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm remember how excited I am to wake up,
excited to play that my heart beat can't stop.

I remember the sweetness of the soup she cooked for us,
it taste like heaven and it feels like a blanket that heat us up.
I'm remembered how I enjoyed playing under the rain in our land,
it's so cold yet I can feel her warmth for she won't leave me behind.

I remembered her graceful walk beside me on my way to school,
I was walking with my cold hands but she looks really cool.
I can now go outside our house,
She said "no more clowns. Let's look for a doll house".

I remember her smell,
I remember her warmth,
I remember everything about her,
I remember and I still feel her love for me and for us.

She save us a lot,
She was there when we need to fight.
She was and will always be our number one fan,
She always believe that we can do everything by our own hand.

She never failed me to smile, cry and laugh.
She never failed to act that she is so tough.
She never failed to make us feel safe and home.
She never failed to love us with all of her heart.

She's the best of all the best,
She's my first and last love,
She's my first kiss and first hug.
She's my one and only true love.

I love you with all of my heart,
Happy mother's day mother.
You have my love and my heart.
We love you with all of our heat our best mom.

She like to meet the guy,
that will sit beside her till they die.
The one who will cherish her loneliness,
and change those feelings into happiness.

The guy who will never leave her aside,
and will clean his soul by her side.
Promise he will be her knight,
to lessen the feelings of fright.

She's a princess.
Having a prince in chapter six.
He will save her if she stocked in the tree.
To leave the sadness and leave happily.

Thinking in reality we don't get happy ending.
Sometimes our story lasts with crying.
Cause were crazy and still loving,
the man we think our prince charming.

We must end this stupid thing.
Stop and sleep tight in night,
don't think that fright in your sight.
Sleep under the cold night and live by your own light.

Dreams I have seen in my head,
What a useful bed-
Making me undead.

A face with a mask is a person with a deepest and tragic past.
A face with a fake smile is a person who want to take a rest for a while.
A face with love in the eyes is a person who knows how to try.
A face with a mask, fake smile and love in the eyes is a person who live in a world full of lies.

I'm not alone yet I feel so lonely.
I rather have a flying ability than this invisibility.
I want to feel their love again whole heartedly,
I want to be happy with them beffitingly.

I'm happy outside yet I feel the cold inside,
The sun is setting yet winter have their love to ride.
The icy wave of tears in my pillow became a wild tide,
Drowning me in till I force myself to dive in.

So I wear the mask, the fake smile, and the love in my eyes.
It's okay, I wear the mask so that they can't see me in pain.
It's fine, I have a fake smile to make the pain disappear for a minute.
Don't worry, I will never take the love from my eyes cause' it's my tie that holds them in my heart.

I wear them to bear the coldness in their eyes.
I have them to make sure they will make a good lies.
I'm not good with "I love you's" but I hate "good bye's".
I don't have the strength to stop it but I'm doing it so I won't cry.

I don't want to leave with this unique and gloomy heart bruises.
I don't want to gave another path with traces.
I don't want to look in people's smiling yet fake faces.
I will keep my mask so no one can give me another heartache.

I've dreamed of me holding someone's hand,
Someone who I don't recognize his face when I wake up.
I grow up with my mom on my right side,
and envy and jealousy with other children in my left side.

Every night the same dream invaded my mind,
Every morning I will try to remember his face but couldn't.
Every weekdays I found myself asking why is my family different,
Every weekends I will wake my mom early asking why does our family is incomplete.

Monday morning my mother's face looks different,
Her smile changed from sweet to vibrant.
Tuesday noon an unfamiliar man stand beside her,
With a mixed emotion type of smile full of sadness, happiness and excitement.

Wednesday night I caught the stranger crying with my mom,
I don't understand why but they're both smiling while crying.
Thursday midnight I was shocked that I have a dad,
I was furious that all this time I have a complete family but never felt it.

Friday dawn, I decided to leave our home.
I decided to hate my father for leaving me behind.
I blame him because I was bullied and was called an illegitimate child.
Still, I'm longing for him to call me "my son"

Saturday came and night is near,
I close my eyes and let the nightmare in.
Nightmare didn't came, a man stand beside me holding my hand,
I looked who it was and it strike me it was him all this time.

Sunday I came home running to my fullest to reach our house as fast as I could,
There he was hugging my mom whose crying right now.
Tears are starting to grow from my eyes,
I stop running to catch my breath and said "Thank God for the blessing you made".

"Mother!" I called, they both looked at me.
Their fears dissapeared and relief cave in.
I walk straight closing our gaps to each other,
"I'm sorry" I hug my mom and looked to the man "I missed you and I love you, Father"

I had committed a sin,
But I still look clean.
No one could see me,
So don't be silly I'm still free.

I slit their throat and let the blood flow.
I pierced a knife in the heart and make their beats run slow.
I cut their ears so that they can't hear me roam around.
I burned their tongue so they can't make any sound.

I scoped their eyes so they won't at least cry.
I stitched their lips so that they can't utter a lie.
I torture them with my hand,
and bury them in a land.

It's a crime that I've committed to make them blind,
It's a perfect scene I created in my mind.
You see I'm not really that kind,
Cause I killed people in my mind.

Never be afraid I hate them but I kept it silent,
I'll never utter a word or do a thing.
I just smiled cause I knew I can't do something about it.
I just keep my mouth shut and will keep a secret what's really on my mind.

You promised to stay,
Woke up not feeling okay.
You left far away.

Mirror mirror on the wall;
Let them here the truth before you fall.
Who's the most different of them all?
"You my friend, and you're not great at all"

Once upon a time.
I live alone,
you came.
You cared,
I fell.
You left,
I wait.
You never came,
I'm alone again.
The end.

I don't write well, but when it comes to you I will write a hundred piece or even thousands of poem just to make you feel that you are loved.
-Sacred Heart

We never put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We let anyone to come in because they shout a lot of calls.
We mold each other by opening each hearts and throwing away the chains and locks,
We gave all the keys to them so they can pass trough all the blocks.

We love all the people around us.
People like every part of our cast.
We all complement each other's flaws.
We can give our truest side and they will never call us low

We were happy by our situation back then,
Everything changed when we let our emotion drive our brain.
We love them so much to the point we are ready to give our all,
But they all misread us and they let us fall.

We decided to put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We will never let anyone get inside even if they make so many calls.
We will remake each other by putting each heart with chains and locks.
We will get rid of the key so they will feel our pure blocks.

We will trust no one outside our world,
We will never open up and you guys will never hear a word.
We will never keep our guard down,
cause no one is deserve to set foot in our ground.

They killed us before our 18th birthday,
Now it's our debt to repay them someday.
But we promise it won't take too long,
Please welcome the monsters you made because you judge us wrong.

Nightmares are on the run.
Dying now wasn't my plan.
I have nine nights to wish upon,
and nine stars to count in my glance.

My first night was completely fine,
second night is totally divine,
third night I saw one star fall down in my sight,
fourth night I look above and let my hand wish it can hold them tight.

Nightmares are slowly fading,
screams turned into a phantasm.
Dreams are slowly caving in,
Tears turned into a beam.

My fifth night was peaceful,
sixth night every stars look so colorful,
seventh night I'm falling down with a star,
eighth night I fall and it gave me a tragic scar.

Nightmares are now competing in a run.
I have to die soon the way you plan.
I wish upon nine nights,
and count nine stars to gain my bright.

My ninth night are being conceited ,
screams of my nightmare remain undefeated,
tears of my blood is on my thread,
I'm lifeless and now I do feel I'm dead.