Joshua Michael

Jul 2018

em

recently
I got a little older,
learned a lesson or two,
like how loving someone
could never be as poetic
as I wanted it to.
like how nothing
would ever be as poetic
as I wanted it to.
how can I accept
that the miracle of love
isn’t really a miracle at all?
how can I wrap myself
in someone’s arms
when I know
that there isn’t any sort
of poetic loving involved?
how do I unlearn
the romantic thoughts
that taught me
about the fireworks,
the butterflies,
and the fluttering fingers
in the dark.
and accept that
maybe kissing
won’t be as spiritual as I thought.
maybe it’s really just a mouth on mine.
how do I unlearn my innocent heart
who lulled me into a false sense of hope
for a lover who would call
the way my body moves
art.
a lover who would feel
the poetry
in every word
I spoke in the dark.

#love #disappointment #heartbreak #fear #poetry #lessons

Joshua Michael Jul 2018

A manwhores love

Now to be honest
I shall fill your mind with lies
I'll tell you things
So I can get in between your thighs
I'll lead you on and take your heart
But I won't tell you is
How I'll take it apart

Indeed I have nice eyes
A charming smile and soft lips

I'll even win you over with
my flirtatious charm

You won't see it coming
You are blind to love

I'll hold your heart in the palm of my hand

You won't  be able to make a
stand

When a real man comes along and tries to win your love

He won't be able to
I'm in control,like the big man above

You're not the 1st girl I've done this too, your one of many

But I fooled you into thinking you were special, what a pity

When I’m done with you, I’ll toss you aside

Give you your heart back, but a little is still mine

I took something special from you, that only special men should get

But I fooled you into thinking I was special, special I'm not, far from it

I made you miss opportunities with real love, and I'm not sorry

I got what I needed from you, now onto the next girl I meet at a party

You thought you meant something to me? Wow, but I'm not sorry

My buddies will get a laugh out of this one, You were just my night stand

Something for me to take home
But now your outdated

I got new girls to ***** over, but trust me you weren't out played yet

Because once I had your heart
I had a taste for your genes

I used to love till it was taken, now it's there game I'm playing

#lust #*** #use #broken #heartless #cold

Joshua Michael Jul 2018

Forget me not

Take and use my body
As I ride the wave of your lust
I won’t deny you my pleasure
Even though to you I’m just a rush
I understand you don’t want anything serious
You just want me to be your boy toy
Listen I’m not one to judge
You’re just tired of the frustration
You’ve been a lady for years
Now you want ****** gratification
When you’re done you can tell me to leave
I’m fine with that arrangement
I won’t sit around expecting a phone call
I’m not gonna ruin your boyfriends relation
You can go on with your life
Marry the man give him your heart
He’s the rest of your future
I’m the man of your fantasies
He can fulfill your hopes
But you know I consume your dreams.

#lust #cheater #cheating #lair #unfaithful #loveless #used

Joshua Michael Jul 2018

Why?

You made me feel unwanted
by all the things you did not say,
a simple goodnight, how was your day?

#hurt