It has been 217 days since you decided to leave but why is it that I can still feel you pulling me into your arms every other night?

I have been rubbing the walls of my bedroom with sandpaper, hoping it could remove any traces of you that are left...
I did the same thing to my skin

Everytime someone asks me when will I see someone new I try my hardest to hold my breath, resisting from answering

"My heart"
Sigh
*"He still has my heart"

Hate.
Love.
Both with two syllables
Both with such strong means
“I love you” “I hate you”
They can both be said by the same person
Which one hurts more?
When they say “I love you” how can you believe it?
When they say “I hate you” how can you not believe it?
Both of these four letter words can break people
Four letters.
Two vowels
Two consonants.
Love.
Hate.
~J.O

It Hurts
It hurts knowing
it will never be the same
having to see you
with someone else
acting like it doesn't cause me pain
seeing you laughing
having a good time
while i wonder
why i can't call you mine
while my eyes are filled with tears
and i can only see blurry
i take a deep breath
and tell myself not to worry
because deep down i know what's true
i am still deeply in love with you
~J.O

Forgive me for liking you too much,
and I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough.
Forgive me for the loud racing heartbeats of my heart,
and I’ll forgive you for not hearing it.
Forgive me for finding you amazing,
and I’ll forgive you for never noticing me.
Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything,
and I’ll forgive you for avoiding me.
Forgive me for being so pathetic,
and I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it.
Forgive me for not being able to let go of you,
and I’ll forgive you for never holding on to me.