if these are fake worries and fears
why don't i shed fake tears.
why does it really hurt.

i was taught to be a man
and manage my emotions,
but i wonder if i can just
get through the motions.

© Matthew Harlovic

I became silent by days
Although the beginning
Was with moments.
Then,I discover
Its no more alike before
My eye lashes
Aren't dropping anymore.
It felt impossible for you
But it happens
When a beloved is in pain
You can't help it out
The mourning might
Freeze your heart.
Still there nothing much
You can do.
With every passing moment
You can feel like
Uncountable
Light years passing away
You're untouched
The flow of time will conclude.
Still the story left untold
Forever....
As ever.-24.10.2015

I believe in your heart
And the way it makes me feel
As if mine has grown.

I believe in your eyes
And the way they make me feel
As if I'm at home.

I was wrong to
assume
that you would be fine
when I left you
I had to
leave you behind
I regret
each step
I took towards the door
but you just waved
un-phased
said nothing more
how should I know
when I go
you fall apart
you never told me
darling
that I had your heart

I'm not lazy, I'm depressed.
My hands are swollen,
my mouth is empty,
I am a void with shredded skin.

Don't tell me to pray,
I'm drowning, I need air, not words.
Not these words.

Lonely men chase butterflies
They run and run
Cry and cry

Lost boys chase dragonflies
From here to there
Try and try

Honest men seek a rose
They pick and place
Wilt and waste

Smart boys leave her where she grows
To stay and wait
He appreciates