You changed my life in so many ways
I struggled to make it through the day
Before you walked through that door
And showed me what life was for
I could never explain what you mean to me
I could never describe all the beauty I see
Your smile reflects my soul
To hear you laugh makes me whole
Nothing could ever be better
Than when we're together
Every moment every minute
No matter how you spin it
To me is pure bliss
With every little kiss
Every whispered word of affection
Strengthens that connection
You're what I have missed for so long
And all I have is this simple song

I still think of ending it all
Every now and again
Been awhile since my last fall
But now is different from then
I have a reason to smile
She gives me one every day
And it's been a long while
Since I've felt this way
But old habits die hard
And I'm really not that far
From the same schoolyard
Where I got these scars
From the pain I let overtake me
From all the nightmares on repeat
But that's not all that makes me
I will not wallow in defeat
As each day dawns
I find strength in her eyes
To continue to carry on
To break away from all my lies

To everyone waiting to see me fail
I came to let you all know
That this soul ain't for sale
I'm sure you enjoy the show
But this sure isn't for you
It's all for me and I'm all in
You don't know what I've gone through
And you sure don't know where I've been
I've been in the deep end
I've gone through hell once or twice
Enough to know that I'll bend
But won't break in this life
And I spill it all in these lyrics
I'll sing and scream loud as I can
To make sure you hear it
And know I've become the man
That I want to be
But we all know
No matter what we see
There's room to grow
So I search for my answers
I continue to strive
To cure these old cancers
That try to eat me alive

Once an addict always an addict
And I'm back in the attic
Blowing dust off picture frames and knickknacks
Stirring up old feelings and panic attacks
These memories so fragile
These demons so quick and agile
None of it ever goes away
Just covered until a cloudy day
When my soul decides to do some housekeeping
But this is something no spring cleaning
Could ever completely sanitize
Until I come to realize
That this is no longer me
Just remnants of what I used to be

I just want to make you gasp and moan
Run out of breath but screaming for more
Treat you like a queen on her throne
Spread your legs and make your spirits soar
It's all so filthy romantic
To you just ***** bedroom talk
Simply playing with semantics
But I'm more than talk I walk the walk
It's not about you and me
Because Lord knows I'm a lost soul
It's about us being we
Because that's what makes me whole
The claw marks up my back
Just the graffiti of passion
Still dressed in black
That's just my fashion
I'm not me unless I'm bleeding
So scratch and bite and tear me open
I'm begging almost pleading
My blood is poetry in motion

Furious
Curious
Fractured
Enraptured
By the gravity
Of what it had to be
Tender
Slender
Tragic
Magic
Dreams slipping through my fingers
As the memory still lingers
Suppressed
Depressed
Songs
Wrong
About every little thing
And every bit I sing
Dramatic
Fanatic
Drunk
Punk
Up all night
Still in fights
Potential
Credentials
Passing
Fasting
From something unhealthy
Maybe someone can help me
Leech's
Speeches
Lamented
Invented
These twisted nightmares
In which I can't care
Various
Precarious
Situations
Frustrations
So intense you can't imagine
How it once had been
Funny
Sunny
Living
Giving
But these days are long gone
And I've simply moved on

Give me a reason to live
Or give me a reason to die
I can't handle in between
Do you even want to give
Anything other than a goodbye
Just another somber scene
I lie awake in bed
Wanting nothing more
Than for it to end
But I can't stay out of my head
I can't settle the score
Breaking after the bend
Shattered in to countless pieces
That once resembled a heart
Pushed too hard to find
Meaningful releases
But I ******* fell apart
Lost hope and went blind