Who am I ?
In a world full of people
Who am I ?
I'm running round in circles
I
Don't understand
Why
I still can't stand
Up by myself
I'm trying
To find who I am
I'm crying
I don't know who I am
I won't ask for help
Because if you knew how I felt
You'd always run away
I won't ask for help
Because I don't know what I would say
But I swear I'm trying
Though every night I go to sleep crying
I feel like my heart is slowly dying
But I swear
I'm trying
I really hope one day
It will all be okay
But I'm not really sure about much
I know I've said it before
I can't do this anymore
When everything dies at my touch
And everyday I wake up
I layer on the make-up
I'll brush my hair
And say I don't care
When deep inside it's killing me
So hard when my mind is willing me
To give up and let go
You'll never go with the flow
Just give up and write that letter
You'll feel so much better
So I'm writing that letter
I still don't feel much better
I still don't know
Who am I ?
In a world full of people
Who am I ?
I'm running round in circles
My cuts are getting deeper
And I think I'm seeing flickers
I would really just like to know who I am

What happened ?
To that little girl
Where did she go ?
It all happened to fast

Something went horribly wrong
After four years I still don't know what
That little girl is dead and gone
Her innocence left to rot

I looked in the mirror this morning
Like every other day
And what I saw was torturing
Like every other day

Who is the stranger in the mirror ?
Whose are those empty eyes staring back at me ?
Why are the eyes so empty ?
What happened to you ?
What happened ?

I feel so very detached
My memories don't feel like mine
A ******* chain is attached
To my ever dying mind

Voices are getting louder
Asking silly questions
Why don't I know the answer ?
Why are they screaming depression ?

What ever happened ?
To the happy little girl ?
Was she stolen away in the night ?
Passed on to another world ?

I don't know
I don't know anything
Anymore

Why are there scars
On my arms ?
My arms aren't as scarred as my heart
What's with all the scars ?
I don't remember falling

I remember the blades
Slipping through my skin
I remember the tang of my dark red blood
As my life line wore so thin
I remember the pills in my hand
I remember the feeling of them scrambling to get down my throat
I remember the soft feeling
Of the cigarette between my cracked lips
I remember the smooth cool of the beer flowing across my tongue

I remember all those things I shouldn't  
I don't remember the things I should
A little grave yard in my heart
For everything I've lost

100 miles
Down this road
Ignore the fuel dial
I have thousands more to go

A rainy night
With a lo-fi playlist
A day devoid of light
The sun clouded by mist

Some time late at night
Or in the early hours of the morning
Trying to outrun the day
So I'll keep driving
Down this deserted highway

Lonely traveller
Long way from home
Where is home ?
I trip and fall a lot
I guess I'll wander and roam
'Till I find somewhere
Until I meet someone special
Someone I won't scare
Away

Away from my heart
How can you love the dark ?
How can you be dreaming
Of these inner demons

I'm gonna feel sorry for myself
Because I don't want someone else to
I'll try to look after my degrading mental health
And I'll try to make that lie come true

Somewhere in the night
Or in the dark part of the day
Dreaming devoid of light
On a deserted highway

About to crash
Into a concrete wall
End my life
And lose it all

Knowing people talked
Behind my back
I can live with that
Knowing  you lied to me
I'll survive
Knowing you betrayed me
Hurts but it's okay now
Knowing I was mistaken about you
Almost killed me but I'm still here
It's knowing you could let me go so easily
That still hurts the most

I can't do this anymore
Try spending Saturday
Lying drunk on the floor
I'm telling you
I can't do this anymore

Countless times I told you
How many times did you listen ?
What do I have to say to get through
To that loving person, seems missing

I can't do this anymore
In the morning half past four
Spent the last week sleeping on the floor
I'm telling you
I can't do this anymore

How long not long
Can I last
How long not long
I'm falling so fast

Heart breaks a little more everyday
Yet I'm still trying to convince myself that I'm okay
No idea who I am my mind's gone astray
Can I even ask you to save me today ?

Don't know how this went to wrong
Innocent child long gone
I am nothing but another sad song
Forever wandering and lost in the throng

Is it too much to ask
To be just a little happy
Life's my Hercules task
I can see myself die trying

I can't do this anymore
Keep stacking on that one more
How can you fall through the floor ?
Still awake at half past four

Still awake at half past four
Don't want to sleep because
I'm afraid I won't wake up
That last overdose may have spilled the cup
But I kind of want to close my eyes
And rest my weary soul
Sorry for all those times I lied
I'm closing my eyes
To see what's on
The other side