I will dye my beloved brown hair blonde for you Stand at the mirror - I pour down the peroxide. Knives grate my eyes and yet they've never felt this alive With my wild smile and yellow hair. No longer a cub, but a Lioness.
I will slit my wrists in the bath for you In any case these full veins will only take up space. Fumes of pink against the ceramic varnish I smile at the sight of your blood leaving me and this bath has never felt so like home.
I watch you breathe as you sleep. I'm afraid of what you could mean to me.
I study the stripes on your shirt. I think of all the ways we'll flirt and all the ways we'll cry and I'll choke with your hands around my throat, and Malboro Black cigarette smoke pouring down my esophagus-- I wish I wasn't so fond of us.