Inside a garden
Of misleading wonders,
A rose so wondrous
With thorns are obvious.

It's painful and slow
But carry overtones to grow
Its petals bleed
But worthy to be someone's lead

Thorns protect flowers--
Just like teachers
Who protect us to fully bloom
And pass through tall wall looms.

I had grown
from the blood—
grown
from that pain,
grown from those
who left me behind that day.
Yet when I grew,
covered in blood, sweat, and tears,
I didn’t realize how tainted I was—
with new fears,
new unimaginable pain,
new illness,
all said to be “framed.”
I grew—
yet they left me broken,
with more blood
that keeps clotting up.
Now my future is clotting—
with that blood,
that regret,
that pain,
that shame
of not speaking up
when I could have—
of leaving myself
with this new pain.
Even though I can’t go back,
this growth
has left me
permanently
changed.

Sometimes when I’m running
I detach from reality
And suddenly I’m face down in the rocks
And my knees are ******
And I’m throwing up
But there’s no one to save me
No one to pick me back up
Thats what happens when you’re on your own
You have to stitch up the wound
Stitch it closed alone
And there’s sweat on my hairline
And blood on the dirt
But I have to put myself back on my feet
And keep running
Like I didn’t miss a beat

I’m trying my best to be okay
Okay
So stop yelling
Put down the sharp words
Quit making me cry
I’m tired
Please let me try
To be okay
Okay?

Great Protector, won't you come
and shield me from this pain?
Pass me an indestructible umbrella
to block out all this rain.

Mighty Savior, won't you find
me in my darkest hour?
Extend your hand to greet mine.
Please, don't let me be devoured.

Just Liberator, can't you see the
cruelties done by their hand?
Free me from these atrocities
and lead me to a glorious land.

Righteous Deliverer, don't take too long!
I'll be waiting here for you in this sea
of never-ending savagery. So,
please deliver me. Save me.

...

Why didn't you come, my Messiah?

When I die
Yeah, people will be sad
Some might even cry
But as the days go on
And the years pass by
They will slowly forget that I’m gone
They’ll forget to look for me in the halls
They won’t ask where I’ve been
They’ll stop wondering when I’ll call
The only place they’ll look for me
Is buried deep in their memories
Where I’ll always be
As long as you remember me
And if you forget
Hey, that’s okay
I will see you again someday
When I die
Some people might cry
But I will always be
Alive inside your memories