I can't seem to find the right words to say exactly what i'm feeling.
I can't seem to the energy to write anymore.
I can't seem to be a good girlfriend
Or daughter
Or friend
Or sister.
The world we live in today, it's
it's so broken.
Teenagers stay up late, later than the rest of their family, just to break down.
We will remember what you said on July 19th, 2019 at exactly 2:19 pm.
But why can't we remember how it felt to be happy?
They say numb is an emotion,
But is it?
When your leg goes numb, do you still feel it?
Tell me what I need to do,
To be fixed.
Is there even such a thing?
All I know is
I literally hate myself and would give anything to be someone else.
To be pretty
To be smart
To be loving
All the things i'm not.
People ask me one thing,
Every day.
And every day it's the same answer
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, i'm fine."

A little house
On the hill
White fence
With a garden
People decorating inside
High school sweethearts
Laughing, smiling, kissing
They must be a couple
Husband and wife?
Big wedding
DJ, photographer, friends and family
Moving into their new house
The woman
Has a big belly
Twins?
A girl and a boy
Such blessings
Dogs?
Two
Soon to be parents as well
Watching the man
Old now
Hold his wife's hand
As she takes her last breath
To say...
She was living a dream
Oh, how he was confused
Only to find out
She had left him a note
On their counter in the little house
He unfold the note
All of a sudden
The sun came out
The weather didn't call for this
It looked like....
A dream
And in that very moment
He understood

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Trees just give you oxygen
Rain is just something that gets you wet
Grass is just something you walk on
Snow is just something cold and nasty
A road trip is just a long, cramped drive
A car wreck is a tragic accident
But to me
Trees are a form of life. They are alive but still lose their leaves. And they grow them back more beautiful then ever.
Rain is a motivation. Falling asleep to it hitting your roof. Understanding your pain on the days it’s there. Washing away everything to begin a new day.
Grass is an inspiration. It gets stepped on, covered with lawn furniture and snow. It gets cut. Yet, it stays green. Never gives up.
Snow is a dream. It makes everything sparkle. Gives joy. And for such a cold thing, it opens many warm hearts.
A road trip may be long and cramped but, it’s a time to clear my head. To experience a different nature. To drive down a familiar or unfamiliar road with my loved ones, I’m down for it any day.
A car wreck is a day to pray. If we are praying for the fast healing of the wounded or if we are praying for the death of someone. Someone’s life was taken into the hands of this motor vehicle and was completely wrecked. It’s not an accident but it’s life.

Tell me why you like him they say
I get it everyday.
Well let’s not delay,
The way he makes me smile
It last a while.
The safeness of his embrace,
It feels like the right place.
The look in his eyes,
Says no lies.
Holding his hand,
I feel like I understand.
My depression walks away when I’m with him,
He’s like a hymn.
Tell me it’s wrong:
But he’s my song.
The lyrics are his words,
The melody is his heartbeat,
He keeps me alive
And together we thrive.

Your smile is as bright as ever.
Your eyes sparkle with forever.
My head is filled with you.
God, I’m so blue.
Why you may ask,
It’s all under my mask.
I see you with her,
And it’s all just a blur.
I’m glad you’re happy,
Even if I’m unhappy.
The way you look at me,
Makes her seem absentee.
Looking back;
It’s love we lacked.

I'll never be her,
She's what you prefer.
As I walk by,
Pretend to be shy.
When you laugh,
Just to say in my behalf:
I'll look into your eyes of blue,
To say I love you.
Please don't mind,
The little guys running down my cheeks.
They've been confined
For quite some time.
But I don't dare,
Because I know you won't care