If you kissed me
I would die
Thinking it was a dream
I would throw myself over the edge
Trying, but failing to fly
My body would lie there
Smashed against the ground
Bones crushed
Blood splattered

I'm mad at myself for giving you so much power over me
For not being able to break free
But I've been yours since the day we met
And I did fight it
I did
But I stood no chance
Against the force that was you

The smell of rain is grass and wet asphalt
It is the essence of the sky raining down on us
It’s the feel of cold and the crispness of fresh snow
It is the sun making a trillion baby rainbows
It is freedom pressing us down so that we can taste the earth
It is the sky being swallowed by an endless gray
And the sound of a new, better tomorrow
It is rain
Beautiful and pure

There are people
Without food
There are people
Without shelter
There are people
Without family or friends
And then there is me
Crying
Because I can’t
Have
You

I laugh
Just a little bit too loud
Around you

People are like china
Chipped and cracked
But still useful

I stand before you
Completely bare
You've never been like this
You've never been this naked
Even though I've seen you without clothes
You've never been this bare

Love
is
Slowly poisoning
The blood in my veins

I should be happy my poetry is crap
Depression is food for poets
And I am just not broken enough
To be good

It cut like a knife
Draining me of life
It cut like a thorn
Making me wish I never was born
It made tears fall from my face
I felt so out of place
It made my heart restlessly stir
Just seeing you with her
It made me cry
Made me want to fall to the ground and slowly die

In my dreams I slowly die
I tried to save the world
But then there you were
I forgot my task
You took my hand
You led me to a house
I leaned into you
In this house
We didn't care that the world would die
I smiled
You were finally mine

You were distant today
So I didn't say it

And now I'm scared I've ruined it
And that I'll never have the chance again

I've held it in for longer than I thought I could

**** it.

I love you

I'm sorry you meant too much to me
I'm sorry for falling in love with you
For giving you the power to break me

You didn't ask for that
And you didn't want it

You have ruined my sense of touch
I've never felt as safe as I did in your arms
There is nobody who makes my skin spark with electricity the way you did
Nobody whose warmth I don't shy away from now because it isn't yours

Human touch just doesn't feel the same since I met you
My body rejects any skin that isn't yours

It takes seven years to replace every cell in your body
In seven years none of your cells will have touched mine
So maybe I'll get my sense of touch back then

But oh how tragic it is that my cells will never have been touched you

You hurt me deeply
And sometimes I think I shouldn't have given you that power in the first place
But I will never apologise for loving too hard or trying my best

But I don't know if I can forgive myself for ever believing you were doing the same